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Are Kara

2012-01-04T17:07:00.016+08:00

mood: chipper icon: fairy chariot

music: Mou Ichido Kimi ni Aitai - Shimokawa Mikuni

I think I'll be whining like a child in this post;; Well first, belated Happy Happy New Year! i'm quite confused on how to construct this post but here goes!

Today I actually did something quite bad to dad. Well its not exactly that i did something but I kinda ignored his request and all his lectures a.k.a sermons about how he'd immediately act on our requests came bugging my conscience. We intended not to give attention to each and it was more like of a silent treatment. Yes I ended up quite sad about it.

After he left I made another short record of twitter's #Smiling2010 meme since someone was planning to compile all memes, mash it up into one song and thus asking for our off vocals. So okay submitted the file and while I was in the 'moment' of recording something, I was thinking of a nice song to give to a good friend.

Songs from anime Full Metal Panic came into mind and then I went searching for the songs. I find most of the songs soooo nostalgic so I turn out downloading songs from the anime. There was this one song missing though and after minutes of frantically searching for it, I finally found it.

Are Kara // From Then On (lyrics & translation) by Shimokawa Mikuni also in Full Metal Panic OST. This happen to be my break up & favorite song before and to my surprise tears would still gush out from my eyes just after listening to the 1st few lines of song for such along time now. I know the lyrics but I couldn't sing along at all from crying (i feel pathetic;;; ). This song had a strong impact to me than I thought. I hope the next time around I would be able to sing along with the song properly.

Bittersweet

2011-09-15T14:15:00.011+08:00

mood: thankful icon: dawnpearl

music: Suki Dakara (scat) - Katou Idzumi

The other day I got into the same ride with my long-long crush since our houses are pretty close by. I guess I had that "tired" expression on my face while calling for the tricycle to stop and as I saw him, I brought up a wry smile.

Riding on the same tricycle with him brings back memories. Before, I would always hope to catch the same ride with him going to school when we used to be classmates. And at that moment with him again, on the same tric. it suddenly felt so nostalgic...

Along the way to school we talked about how our teams were doing in the competition and that he overslept that morning so he failed to have his attendance signed.

When we arrived at school he treated me for the fair. (yeah... he always did that) Same good old gentleman he really was. Sadly we didn't enter the school together since he was waiting for the change and I was in a hurry for the our dance practice. He insisted for me to go ahead and so did I thanking him as I was taking my leave.

Bitter sweet experience. We coincidentally used to go on the same ride during our 1-2nd yr. in college (the years when we used to be classmates) and its only on that day again that we rode on the same vehicle going to school on our 4th and final year.

Short Impression on MSMM

2011-06-18T21:46:00.007+08:00

mood: blah icon: lonelygambler

music: Kimi to Futari - ClariS

Finished watching Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica today! And my eyes hurt from using the computer while the lights are closed (trying to save electricity or more likely or electric bill from increasing). We can do this eyes... i don't want to use glasses just yet.

Was was quite annoyed by the 1st few episodes honestly. Madoka won't stop crying in every episode and didn't much like the the surreal battle scenes but bah the character's action scenes were good so never mind those hypnotizing graphics.

The anime's ending was certainly satisfactory but really didn't see it coming of Modoka ending up as a God with her wish. Kinda felt bad for what Homura went through, she faced all those troubles alone just to save Madoka and it actually turned out that I like Homura Akemi now~

What I liked about series was its plot having little twist from the usual magical girls type of anime genre. Her wish to-be was the biggest mystery for me but I'm glad she came up with a really unexpected but useful wish for everyone.

random:

[ asjkdfgkdslfkjhc sleeping KO-CHAN ]

PS. omgah! Those pink bold words and flesh-colored italics worked (yes they're in the code) using Chrome! Made this post using Google Chrome but all my precious posts was written using Firefox. I wonder why... Not much of a pink person but it actually looks good(?);;;

Mikageishi

2011-06-15T10:38:00.008+08:00

mood: worried icon: summerline
music: 一人じゃないから - UVERworld

Last night was kind of rough... wasn't able to study well honestly and now I'm leaving our research be since I don't have the updated version.

Listening to kanachii's problem and urumoe's frustration last night really got in me. Now I'm listening to sad songs too and is kind of teary eyed for no reason. Maybe... just maybe, I remembered him again. I though I got it all out but nahhh.

Songs can really make you emotional - giving you a twisting bitter sweet feeling with it.

This song by Uverworld called Mikageishi, (how can i say this..) "it was love at first tune" lol. The melody of the music fits so well with the lyrics and you'll immediately feel the emotion and meaning behind the song by just listening to it. All The more when your reading its lyrics! I was like, "daawwwww" with my heart fluttering and I really love how they transformed all those words and thoughts into one oh so good song.

I personally listen to this song when I'm in a melancholic mood may it be caused by sadness or happiness. This song gives a lot of feelings which is why i love looping it in the playlist.

UVERworld - Mikageishi (Will That Cast a Beautiful Shadow)
album: UVERworld - AwakEVE

There are a countless number of small crossroads in life
We each have our respective futures that we've chosen up ahead, their shapes will change
But no matter what kind of future, I think that we'll be together
For example, if you hadn't come to the store that we first met in
And if I hadn't noticed you at the crosswalk, where we met for the second time
If we were to meet for the first time today, I would still fall in love with you

The sound of the words "I love you" shines as the days increase
Just by being together in an empty room, everything is so wonderful
With the single phrase "I love you"
You're saying that you can accept all of my bad habits
During those times I fall in love with you so many times that in your heart you'd be embarrassed

"You say that it's for us, but all you do is work"
"I want you to treasure your friends, but do you love me?"
I gave you so many lonely memories that you don't know the answers to these things if you don't ask

Yesterday I heard a conversation that went like this
That Olympic athlete, in his own uniform
Wrote his son's name and got a gold medal
When a person is burdened with something, it makes them stronger
That's definitely something that I say, but what about you?

Just being together gets me through the nights that I shed tears
Smiling and saying "Being too happy is painful", then looking at you
I really thought that I wanted to grow old with you
It's good to cry like a woman, but sometimes it's good to cry like a man too
If we can live each other like human beings
You won't need your fashionable appearance or dignity
And I won't need pretend like I'm tough anymore

When I saw the wonderful scenery, before being moved I thought
I wish I could show this to you
I had planned to live my life for myself, but before I knew it
Your happiness was my own

Knowing the words that I'll say in the next of the constant conversations
I say them right away; Pretending to be annoyed by
The anniversaries that you seem to want to accumulate, the truth is that I'm listening closely
I feel that I want those wishes to come true to what extent that they can
Just a little bit would be fine: I want to get a dog in the house
And have kids, but we're only together sometimes on the weekends
It's definitely not going to be nothing but fun times
But it will be fine as long as we can smile and go to sleep together in the end

Until love that was born with no form goes one day into a world with no form
Because we're connected, the feelings we wish for and our anxieties are the same

Just being together gets me through the nights that I shed tears
Being too happy, there are days when things will get painful
Lovers are all searching, so let's find the answer to true love together

lyrics: Coffee Break

楽器の

2011-06-11T20:37:00.013+08:00

mood: rushed icon: juisse
music: フタリボシAcoustic Arrange - Shounen T 【少年Ｔ】

1 more day left before the official start of classes *sigh* Basically I think I've done nothing fruitful today and of the whole summer vacation. Nothing as planned did ever happened except that I've fully utilized my time for totally being a lazy bum.

Have quite a number of tabs in here with nico nico ( & youtube) stuffs and its sad how adding "Favorites" in the site is only limited (I don't know if its the real deal but I can't favorite anymore vid. unless I delete one).

So here are just a few plus you guys gotta love them!

Want this so badly too. The track list demo is so cool!

Madoka Magica Anime Violine x Vocal Arrange CD

MISERICORDIA x Sorairo Club & Chibita

2011-05-06T18:43:00.009+08:00

mood: hopeful icon: ironside
music: Calm - Sorairo Club x Chibita

This morning I was planning on making a header for the blog but I don't know what got into me that made me end up doing my FB primary picture instead.

Well I really love how it looked like in the end. It's been a while since I seriously blended some stuffs through Photoshop so I'm quite happy and proud in making it.

Also I got these albums I downloaded the other day.

Yuyoyuppe's 「MISERICORDIA」 and Sorairo Club's 「Sorairo Club × Chibita」

They were the one's responsible in making me so relax to the point of doing nothing this morning but to listen to their music. I honestly didn't expect in loving Yuyoyuppe's music because most of them are heavy rock with screamos. But in Misericordia where Hanatan is the vocalist, my perspective of his music was totally changed.

She was able to balance both rock and love music through her mellow yet piercing voice.
I'm not sure but based from his translated songs, his music usually revolves around love, being broken and hopeless romantic. "Hopeless romantic" that's probably one of the reasons why I love his songs.

Sorairo Club's Sorairo Club × Chibita I think is the perfect compliment for Misericordia. Its cute, mellow and upbeat. Chibita as the vocalist is perfect for the songs too and I just love playing both albums in consecutive order in my playlist.

スキキライ/Suki Kirai

2011-03-18T15:14:00.005+08:00

mood: surprised icon: castanets
music: Feel so Good - Supercell

Was gaping a couple of times exactly like that icon LOL. It started when I was viewing ASK and Hanatan's Kirai Suki duet at youtube. Browsed some more random dubs of the same song when I eventually came across this cover.

Their name's were written in Katakana so I though some singers from Nico Nico made the collab. I looked into the comments and spotted two names, "Apol & Haru". The people were casually commenting on the video so it was definitely not of Nico Nico. The video was playing and the vocals were good. Kagamine Rin's part was well sang by the female singer and her voice sounded so close to Hanatan's. Kagamine's Len's part was also good too.

I was curious so I head back at their names. "Haru"... then I though she must probably the one whom I met at Colorless and is a member of the Youtube Chorus. "No wonder the female's vocals were good! Ok. No doubt about her" I thought. Now to check on the guy... clicked on the uploader's name and went to his page.

I was expecting someone not from country but as I read through his Profile there was this,

I'm from the Philippines (PINOY FTW!)

So without even finishing reading the sentence I immediately on impulse said, "FUCK!!!" so loud that even my sister from the next room was startled by me saying the bad word. OTL; I-I think I was able to say it due the shock that they did so good and that my mind slipped reading "ForTheWin" to "WhatTheF***."

Aaa but it was so surprising that 2 Pinoys did the collab.! I mean their diction is so good that you can't almost mistake them not being Japanese! Wow... I think I rarely hear Filipinos at youtube sing in Japanese with such good diction thus the shock ^^;; Their matching profile designs are really really cute too (Haru & Apol's)! Also they're lovers.

Initially didn't really like スキキライ/Suki Kirai cause its loud, super upbeat and its somewhat painful to the ears. Was only attracted to it because of the movie and Len *shots* But for some reason I keep on coming back to listen to the song... was my 1st time listening to Len in his Append version. He really sound so mature!

The Unfinished Post

2011-03-17T11:16:00.006+08:00

mood: touched icon: stitches
music: Mikage Ishi - UVERworld
- been listening between this song and Supercell's Feel so Good

Started this morning doing chores and then sat with the computer to watch Kimi ni Todoke - Episode 9. Been feeling all fuwa fuwa after that~ I bet all the viewers got what they've been waiting for (Sawako's heartfelt confession). It would have been awesome if Joe didn't ruin the moment though :))

Yeah, that confession could really trigger goosebumps... it felt so pure, honest and innocent. (I feel so happy for them!) Totally gave my day a good start for the 1st time this entire vacation. And since the mood was there, played Supercell's Feel so Good at winamp and it was perfect!

Hello~ And Desktop Compilation 2010

2010-12-22T19:26:00.004+08:00

mood: okay
music: Shikakui Hako - Yamai (Usa Colony iv)

Hello! Long time to see~ How are you guys doing? So sorry for not being active. I've seriously been slacking all these time and the truth is I really miss blogging but then when I think of writing, I have nothing much interesting to write anymore.

Mah, well this time I have something to write about and show you guys :]

- My Desktop Screenshot Compilation for the year 2010 -

They are only 9 of them for some of wallies were used for almost 2 months. *sigh* So its really been a year already huh? Time really fly so fast!

A Short Comeback

2010-09-03T17:51:00.003+08:00

mood: calm
music: Blindness - Treow vocals: F9 via winamp

I'm really not supposed to be typing at this very hour but yeah, I think I have to spend my last free day completely to my hobbies before studying for midterms. A while ago I was visiting Gaia and my history post list in this blog. In short, the good old websites x3

I promised myself to write everyday and everything that encountered for the day but I stopped around March this year. I think it was the month that I got fully into Tinier Me and vocaloid... Oh! Especiallywith Utattemita[s] (eg. Clear, Dasoku, Amu etc. of Nico Nico Douga). My time was eaten up mostly because of them.

I miss(&love) my previous posts and writing style before. Its not too monopolizing with all the "I"s & "my"s that I use a lot these days. Don't you think its more interesting to read articles/ posts that are less monopolizing? Personally, I find it more comfortable to read. Plus those previous posts have more feelings in them which my recent posts are lacking or am I the only one whose bothered by it? =w=;

Nonetheless there were a lot of changes from the life I used to live before and it can't be help to feel nostalgic when remembering and reminiscing things from the past.

Current interest:

S4 League - its really fun playing this game! One of the best!
Nico Nico Douga
Twitter
Vocaloid
Utattemitas

ADDED: This is a cool clock counter ♥

I miss you guys and especially bloggy~♥!!

UP!

2010-06-08T20:29:00.002+08:00

mood: recumbent icon:vanillasquared
music: *actually torn between Amu & Shounen T's lives.
→ internet's not speedy enough to listen to 2 lives :<

Pixar's UP is really something huh? Watched the movie yesterday with my sister on her computer and I actually cried my eyes out when we were in bed with the lights closed.

I could not agree less in this comment by High5Rocketon on Pixar's Up Soundtrack - Track 3: Married Life at youtube

"Pixar really knows how to get to your heart. Not in a bad way but oh my goodness i freaking CRIED in this movie so much. Mr. Fredrickson's love for Ellie was just so true and pure. I love it ♥"

Oh the Joy~

2010-06-07T15:02:00.009+08:00

mood: sleepy icon:herinia
music: 【らっぷびと】戦場と花束と少女【R☆S vol.2】& randomly listening to Atarime P's live
This past few weeks has been really fruitful. I learned a lot about my favorite nico nico singers (utattemita), met a number of significant people from Twitter & Skype plus is now finally getting a hang using Nico Nico Douga.

*few minutes later after messaging Atarime P while having his live*

OMGah! Atarime P actually mentioned my name, "Fenris Chihaya" and read my message for him aloud!!! (rawr! WHAT THE HECKY?!?) Though I'm incredibly happy? no... more like EUPHORIC right now and is slapping & biting my finger.

*wait I need to calm down a bit... BREATHES*

Ah... I completely lost my idea on what to write... Well there you have it for today. Guess I'll dedicate this post to Atarime P for making me blush BIGTIME!!

My 1st Chorus & Toolba-ru

2010-05-28T16:10:00.006+08:00

mood: embarrassed icon: castanets
music: Bye-Bye Lover歌ってみた【nero】
- this song made me a Nero fan plus the beat & rhythm reminds of the songs by CHEMISTRY (band).

COLORLESS' Uragirino Yuukake Mix is out! [linky] I honestly don't know why I'm so embarrassed listening to this where I can't even distinguish who's who! I can't even find where my voice is in this mix but nevertheless I'm happy & proud for Riku who eagerly mixed & syncronized our craptastic voices.

Wish I could practice singing now that I still have the time but since our younger cousin's staying here for a month, I think I won't be able to accomplish anything. By the time he'll leave (June 10) it'll only be 5 days away before classes starts. Huh, me and my bad luck.

Also added a few services in the toolbar below. More languages are now available under translation, a real time stat, google & w/in the blog searches are is now accessible and most of all the Youtube video gallery feature (my most favorite services of them all).

I don't upload videos but I love to make favorites most especially if its about vocaloids & anything related to Nico Nico Douga. This means, I don't have to bother pasting my favorite videos links here one by one (like what i did in the past) but instead, it can be readily accessible in the toolbar. I AM SO AMAZED BY THIS TOOLBAR!

Try clicking the "Youtube Video" on the white toolbar. The scroll's so COOL! ( *A*)b

Bloodily Rusty

2010-05-26T17:28:00.004+08:00

mood: lazy icon: castanets
music: 【初音ミク】「帰り道」【オリジナル曲】 - vocaloid

Today is one of those days which I stay put in front of the computer totally clueless & uninspired to do something useful. I pretty much hate when these kind of days happen but nonetheless I was able to change few little stuffs in this blog.

The music player on the left corner was changed from its streaming feature to a text/ title. The music playing right now is entitled, "Euphoria" one of the piano pieces found in the : ARIA~Piano Collection~ Stagione album which is also actually one of my most favorite pieces.

Also tried making something that is finally out of Photoshop:

Made use of my remaining PS elements: textures (2), blending modes, eraser & just about 2 brushes. After my computer was reformatted for the 4th time, I didn't bother downloading all the things I've lost. And yes my PS skills is now bloodily rusty ^^;

Smile Again

2010-04-29T17:14:00.007+08:00

mood: blah icon: battora
music: ARIA~Piano Collection~ Stagione
- one of the albums i admire back at imeem & is naming this blog entry after one of its pieces.

Looking back at my old entries, I noticed a lot of typographical errors. I wonder why i didn't noticed all of them when i was checking on my grammar (so embarrassing O////O;). Mah, I suddenly felt like typing again cause it seems like I've been missing a lot of things. I wonder if something good will happen if I do graphics designing again or maybe coding. It seems like I'm too old for these stuffs but I hope its not yet too late. Life is so empty when you don't have that burning passion inside for you to do something.

Summer class is so-so, strict as usual and a lot of us are having a hard time with our Biostatistics. Its difficulty level is almost equivalent to 3 subjects! But the thing that makes the subj. even more difficult for us is none other than our professor._. Honestly its very difficult to follow his pace & he's not that considerate enough towards his students.

Things I've been up to lately is sadly, wasting my time at pinoyselfy.chatango and i think I'll be able to finish the short experimental animation series, Ani*Kuri15 today.

Also I finally decided to download & play the game Starry☆Sky but it'll be on standby as far as i'm still having my summer classes. I'm currently downloading the game at Otome Paradise.

If anyone knows or is willing to play the game
then I'll be very much glad to know you.

It'll be my first time to play a visual novel on PC so if I'm not greedy enough, I'd like to have someone to at least relate with :) thank you!~

Yesterday

2010-04-14T13:03:00.009+08:00

mood: giddy icon: varia
music: Hello Windows by Absorb (That, Is, Halyosy) feat. Hatsune Miku
- Miku's melody kinda failed at 1st but gets getting better as the song goes on.

Yesterday I had a Katekyo Hitman Reborn series marathon and didn't noticed i was doing it until it reached till the 5th episode. Quite impossible for a slowpoke internet connection like mine huh? But no... it was very fast. Each episode was divided into 3 parts (that's why) but some parts were choppy and the others weren't so it gave me the chance the to a series marathon. Thank you animecrazy.

Oh and while watching, a character named Spanner caught my interest. I was sqeeing & screaming his name on a pillow while watching each of his scenes lol. die hard fangirl. But the real highlight about yesterday was my personal discovery of 2 nico nico douga singer's, Gero & Faneru ねる. I know them by their names before but never got interested with their voice until yesterday.

And so, the video that made me love this funny duo (+ ASK):

lol. CRACK MAGNET FTW!!! xDD it kept me laughing till i was in bed.

More of Gero & Faneru (+ ASK):
【ふぁねる＆ASK＆Gero】magnetを自分好みに編集してみた。【まじめver】
- now for their "serious Magnet" version lol.
【寝下呂企画】人柱アリスを普通に歌ってみたはずだった【ねる×Gero】
- Gero snorted! (read this from the comments) but he really did :))
Just be Friends - ねる×Gero (romaji Lyrics and MP3) -Piano Version-
- its also fun & touching hearing them singing a serious song like JBF.
『男命いかの唄』歌ってみた＝Gero(♂店員コーラス)
- my gosh, even listened to a "Squid song"... the influence of Gero ._.

2 1/2 Days of Futile Gaming

2010-04-07T18:39:00.006+08:00

mood: tired icon: heygraphics
music: random vocaloid songs via youtube

Uguu~seriously tired of playing Asda Story for almost 3 days straight. My very 1st mage was already in lvl. 29 when I realized the other players got stronger items so i involved myself into crafting, gear upgrades and dissembling armors. I didn't quite understand how the system works & i got frustrated with my number of failed upgrades causing me to loose a lot of valuable scrolls & upgrade chances.

So I ended up making a new mage character (she's now lvl. 26 only 3 lvls. away from my 1st mage) only later on realizing my 1st mage was better most esp. in terms of item drops. My goodness and i did all those numerous quests for 3 times now (a knight & 2 mages) D: I wasted ... well not totally wasted 3 days of my vacation for that game & now my back hurts from slouching *sobs* I'm not angry with the game, i'm just angry at myself for having such poor luck & being such a noob.

Koizora (Sky Of Love)

2010-04-04T13:45:00.006+08:00

mood: relieved icon: tempuracrispy
music: Endless Story & Everything by 金楨勳 (Kim Jeong Hoon)
- i purposely listened to his songs again because Koizora's Yu-chan reminded me of him.
- HAPPY EASTER!

Yesterday Bwainz a friend of mine at twitter, twitted about Kimi ni Todoke's Live Action Drama and it so happen that Haruma Miura is going to star as Kazehaya.

I focused on the guys face and pondered on him for a minute. No wonder I thought the guy looked so familiar, he was also the male protagonist of the Live Action Drama of Koizora that I still yet have to finish watching.

Koizora (恋空, lit. Sky of Love) is a Japanese romance film and a drama series based on a "mobile phone novel" (ケータイ小説, keitai shosetsu) written by a young woman named Mika (美嘉) The author has noted that Koizora is completely non-fiction, but has recently admitted that it was a made-up story.

Ripped that from wiki and all along i thought it was really a TRUE TO LIFE STORY D: I first learned about it from a manga also entiled "Koizora" and read the whole thing at mangafox (that was i think since last year).

Well, as expected it brought me to tears but its very dissapointing to see comments & critics rating the movie 1, 3 or 5 out of 10. I admit the 1st 4 episodes was so-so but the last 2 was incredibly heartbreaking. In any case I initially accepted the story to be true so i refrained myself from doing critics thus I kind of understand why they evaluated the movie to such extent.

Ah! and Yu-chan! The one who played Yu really really looked like Kim Jeong Hun with his hair down!! I really really thought deeply last night why I kinda relate Yu to someone whom i really like and now i know the reason why ^^; Keisuke Koide played Yu-chan perfectly in the movie (＾∇＾) b

∞ Awesome Koizora promotion magazine photos at Photoplastic. A good review at Twitchfilm.

Kimi ni Todoke END?

2010-04-01T18:53:00.007+08:00

mood: refreshed icon: kakapum
music: Kimi ni Todoke OP Piano Insert Song
→ Kimi ni Todoke ends today 8'(
manga: Vol.10 Ch.040 " From Here " anime: episode 25 Final

Ooh i love my new desktop today. GUMIIII! art by Hakuseki & wallpaper by Tina 18. Blue sceneries or views really soothes the eyes. Today i read the final chapter of Kimi ni Todoke and might watch the ending of the anime later today. Its kind of sad that one of your anticipated animes/ manga ends. Well there's no certain fact about KnT season 2 but alot of bloggers and fans assumed their might be a possiblitily due to its popular demand. I hope Sawako & Kazehaya's romance will continue till S2 *crosses fingers.*

I'm recently also into a game named, Asda Story. My cousin told me once it looked a lot like Flyff but i'm not too sure cause I never played Flyff before. I was really indulging myself into it maybe because I miss the feeling of playing an actual online game. Sort of having a hang over with Ragnarok & Tantra, online games I used to play before. So if anyone here also plays the game, please inform me. I'll be glad to meet you and add you as friend in the game :)

Plus I often now place & post my fetish(es), randomness & fandoms at tumblr where there is the freedom to spam (´∀｀*)ﾉ thank you tumblr!

Being Random

2010-04-01T11:58:00.009+08:00

mood: hungry icon: akihito
music: *tear*　歌ってみた【みーむ】(Mimu) &「*tear* two-step mix」歌ってみた【terry】

My hand still has the smell of garlic (yum)... I realized today while i was cooking one dish for lunch that though I'm a sadist for most of things, I'm also a masochist when it comes the things i'm doing =w=; Like what has been happening this week. If i get too much freedom on the things i do (compter all day long) every night before I sleep, I always have this feeling that the whole day was completely useless but when I am forced to do things that contradicts my pace like massaging father's feet, cooking, attenting chores & errands I always feel fulfilled by the end of the day.

Sometimes when people push me to my limits it often brings out the best of me but going along the process is very very hard. I even sometimes cry for it.

Really when your in the ineternet, every new window or tab you open is a new discovery. I can't focus on one window because the other one has this awesome something that you can't even afford to ignore. The symptom develope when i followed more people at Twitter which i'm very grateful at and is truly amazed *A*~

When entering in a random chatroom I recognize the need for a someone (esp. myself TwT;) to know at least a little bit of everything. Its kinda awkward spacing out or being lost on what their talking about and you can't say any other words than: "yes", "no", "yeah" and even some follow up questions xD

If you know about the anime Durarara!!, things about DOLLARS lurking at Ikebukuro and would like to have a normal chat just like them, well your very much well HERE. This chat has rules so make sure to follow them well. Special thanks to Gargron, Ryan A. & company for making this just look exactly like it was in the anime.

Ranting

2010-03-22T11:26:00.005+08:00

mood: frustrated icon: masouka
music: Kawaranai Mono (strings version) via winamp
- I want to cry so much when hearing this song & when i'm in the mood for it.

Tell me what i did last night wasn't a waste of time... oh darn the this song. I'm kinda sick of school lately and wanted to have another resection all this time. Though with all the praise given to the class, the relationship I have with them is too suffocating sometimes or am I just asking for so much? I'm tired... really tired. I tried many many times already and at times the attempt was okay but there were more times where I just wanted to give up. I don't know how to act around them anymore... (a brainy class & classmates are just so hard to go with)

And about last night, I spent my whole time in this "Durarara!! Chat" which is kinda pretty cool and how i wish i could share the link but they don't want the chat to get all crowded so i couldn't. Well what i did there was kinda helping the chat to look for the of the anime so we basically edited & copied the icons from the anime itself. I wasn't very much of help though and just spent my time editing an icon but wasn't used.

Hah... i get all stressed-up lately though i know i'm the only one stressing myself ^^; I wanna have some rest. We still have class in the middle of a vacation week D:

needed some more stress unloader so I unloaded it here gomen (TﾍT ;) I promise the next post will be something GOOD (o*･ω･)ﾉ

Back

2010-03-20T10:51:00.003+08:00

mood: cold icon: bubblemilk
music: nothing. uhm the sounds/ BGM/ theme of Kirby (gba emulator) coming form the other room.

Yey!~ finally on vacation even though its only for a week ^^; It always... always amazes me when i constantly have the urge to do something productive every time i'm caught into something very important like: tests, projects most especially during exams.

I know i'm prohhibited from the computer during this weeks but i still opt to open & make a few scences in the internet. And it always happen that during these prohibited days, I always find things which are really... REALLY interesting xD (my God why am i like this...) such an irony. But during ordinary & free hours I do the usual thing to "procrast // procrastinate."

I'm like Clear (from Nico Nico Douga) who rarely updates his blog - only 5 times a month D:

So since were only given a week, i'll try my best to maximize my time. I'm planning to arrange & fix a few glitches in some of my internet accounts like LJ, FB, flavours, and ning. Also update the contents of this bloggy esp. the fanlisting section. Plus to make a Tumblr account, I need a place to spam with all these photos, quotes, musics & videos. And lastly to atone for my sins of replying such epic late replies and uhm (promise) try to make a entry daily and post things i discovered for the day :)

Switched

2010-03-07T13:21:00.005+08:00

mood: calm icon: tempuracrispy
music: Rain Stops, Goodbye [4] [8] [Nam]
- playing the 4 chorus via winamp because this version has this " I LOVE YOU ♫" part in the ending and i especially love Nam's voice in this song x3

I was supposed to have this post last night but that Japanese Tinier Me avatar simulator caught my attention the whole night and thanks that I got to to chat & do the usual fun stuffs with one of my best friends, Rizza. Were now both in college & go in different universities so we barely even contact each other. But last night we totally had fun laughing & making our so called "dream avies" (tinier me version).

And so our finished product after 1hr & a half: "The TWINS"

[ chihaya] - [ rizza]

○ click on the image for a full & animated view
We really didn't expected it to come out looking almost the same! plus the two of us coincidentaly interchanged our styles. I was always supposed to be the "not so girlish" type & she's the "cutety-cute" type of design. lol. Guess we just missed each each other so much.

A while ago before making this post, I was watching Kimi ni Todoke Episode 21... gawd and I cried. Dunno why.... TAT & even while reading that part (last 7 pages of Chap.22 - Chap. 23) in the manga had me teary-eyed! (dang it i'm so emotional. i hate it when i cry x.x) And as of now I'm downloading Kimi ni Todoke OSTs (credit: Metanorn) but still have a long long way before it finishes to download: 3 hours & 5 mins.

Tegami

2010-03-02T19:23:00.008+08:00

mood: lethargic icon: keysmash
music: 【少年Ｔｘそらる】　てがみ　【歌ってみた】
- since yesterday I was so attached to Shounen T's acoustics.

We hand our cooking lab. today but instead of doing it at school we cooked our meal (project) in one of our group mate's home because of the conflict we had in reserving the 'Appartel' for our use. So since we can't use the school's facilities & our goods will get rotten if we won't cooked them within the day; we rode a jeep walked a few meters before reaching the house, cooked for an hour, tasted & ate within 30 mins. and off to school again bringing the whole set for our professor to taste (x_x)

Still a few things happened within that time. the tomato sauce wasn't enough, everytime the jeep driver steps on its breaks the salad might spill, the school guards won't let us in because of we brought a styrofoam (as a package & styrpfoams are prohibited in our school) etc... In the end I got (a) headache & leg aches D: man... i'm beat!

By the way I came through this song before I went to sleep yesterday and recently had a liking with - I kept listening to the song while watching the video and somehow if ever you haven't watched the movie, it can already give you an overall gist of what it is about :)

少年T with　そらる singing 「Tegami」!! ♥
Featuring one of my fav. anime movies: Byosoku 5 cm ( 5 Centimieters Per Second)

A letter from you arrived, with your handwriting that I'm so used to
The same old clean, white, simple envelope
I'll read it over and over again
The more I read it, the more your feelings come through

We met that day and walked through the same seasons
Spring, summer, autumn, winter, whenever I remember each one
I think of the uphill road we walked, the narrow road
No matter which memory, they're none of them too strong

Would you turn towards me now?
So many days and months have passed since then
But love doesn't have a statute of limitations
Today I once again think of you with regret

The two of us gently wrap up the memories we left behind
If we ever meet again, you won't look back
For that perfect person
The cold sun shines on your back as you walk away

Since then the days are filled with meaningless graffitti
The scenery outside looks faded for some reason
Before I realize it, I'm writing you a letter again
A love letter like I used to write, just as if nothing had happened

What am I writing now? It's useless
I'm the one who made this decision
Where would we be and how would we be decorating our memories
If we'd stayed together?

The two of us gently wrap up the memories we left behind
If we ever meet again, you won't look back
For that perfect person
The cold sun shines on your back as you walk away

The two of us gently wrap up the memories we left behind
If we ever meet again, you won't look back
For that perfect person
The cold sun shines on your back

The two of us gently wrap up the memories we left behind
If we ever meet again, you won't look back
For that perfect person
The cold sun shines on your back as you walk away

Not Dead Yet...

2010-03-01T21:03:00.004+08:00

mood : anxious icon: fashionless
music: Trust Me by Matsushita Yuya
- I have this habit that every time Duarara!! ends i'd go listen to this song.
[ an informal post ]

Now I can finally relax cause I MADE A POST! The burden of being not able to update my blog was hunting me for weeks D: so I decided to do my old thing of writing on the bloggy daily... well if I can manage to and if time & the circumstance permits. Its been 5 weeks huh?

Long time no update my dear bloggy ♥

To be honest I think I've changed since I went active at Tinier Me. Dunno why... plus I think my english grammar's getty all rusty (my gosh T^T) But I have one good news though, just recently some of our subjects released our mid-term grades & test papers and I unexpectedly got quite high grades... REALLY unexpected but I'm very thankful that I got the opportunity to make that hight :)

Hah I feel much better now. Well I'll end up here for now hopefully by next time I'll be able to reply to all the tags & comments. *sniff* i really missed typing on this small blogger window~

Melody Flurry 2

2010-01-31T13:40:00.017+08:00

mood: mellow icon: visual blur
music: The Vanishment of Haruhi Suzumiya OST
→ A music related post as promised~ Again, there are far more other versions out there but here are a few honorable mentioned . ENJOY! :)

NEWS: K-ON! gets a 2nd season!!! Comes out on April. [source]
[Featured: Synchronicity] screenshots 1/3 & 1/2:

Synchronicity 1/3 with Eng. subs.
Synchronicity 2/3 with Eng. subs.
Synchronicity 3/3 yet to be released
(KUDOS to the illustrator! The art looks AMAZING!)

Kokoro x Kokoro Kiseki // Originally by:
Len Kagamine Solo
Rin Kagamine Solo
Len x Rin Mix Duet w/ Eng. & romanji sub.
Len x Rin Mix Duet ( w/o Eng sub. higher quality)

Versions & Choruses:
Yamai as [Len] Solo
Usa as [Rin] Solo
Yamai x Usa Mix Duet *powerful tandem x3
【Nico Nico Chorus】 Kokoro × Kokoro Kiseki 【18 People's Chorus +2】

KOKORO KISEKI -Voice drama- preview *fudge! I fell in-love w/ Len's voice o.o
Kokoro kiseki - Orchestra ver.

From Y to Y // Originally by:
Hatsune Miku (w/ Eng. & romaji subs)

Versions & Choruses: *CAUTION: Smexy bishi voices ♥
Clear *the best for me 8D
Tourai
Anima
【Ｙ】合唱『from Y to Y』（初音ミクオリジナル）【Ｙ】
【合唱】『from Y to Y』ちょっとフリーダムMIX 【７人】

CELLULOID // Originally by:
Miku Hatsune (w/ Eng. & romaji subs)

Versions , Choruses & Remixes:
Celluloid [Tourai]
celluloid 【うさ】- Usa
Hatsune Miku - celluloid (Remix)

Crystal Mic // Originally by:
Len Kagamine

Versions & Choruses: *CAUTION: Smexy bishi voices ♥
Tourai *Tourai why so PATTIONATE?! -faints-
【Nico Nico Chorus】 crystal mic 【3 People's Chorus】

Hetalia Axis Powers:
【MAD】Nordic mini story / APH
【MAD】Little Story 2 / APH *diabetes alert ♥
APH MAD - Prussia x Hungary

Insrumentals:
Last Night Good Night - Piano
Kokoro x Kiseki - Orchestra

Bonus:
Desktop Miku 157.32 MB *yes a singing Miku on your desktop
- zip life (needs to be extracted)

♫ Other favorites are found at my Youtube list (ﾟ∀ﾟ)/

Ranting Moment

2010-01-30T16:44:00.014+08:00

mood: contemplative icon: visual blur
music: Nameless Song "Namae no nai Uta" & Last Night Good Night (Off vocal/Karaoke)
- found a new vocaloid addciting song // LNGN sounds so much EPIC in off vocal!

- ! Beware of emotional outburst -

I've been thinking so much lately and thoughts just keep on piling like when I'm alone. Somehow I'm sick of being a "no talent" or "no skill" in my opinion. Almost every Saturday our school hold seminars for nursing students from levels 2-4 (i'm in lvl. 2) and its mostly all about the campaigns of review centers in preparation for the board exams.

They give talks about test/ exam techniques (on how to get the correct answers), elimination techniques, career expansion, career opportunities, do board examination drills & simulations (usually), and of course services their review center is offering. Plus they never fail to give encouragement to the students to work harder and to make it on the board exams.

Well its just that lately is been bugging in my head. Out there I face reality and when I'm back at home I face my virtual reality life - my net life. Its fun & the internet never fails to suffice my need of entertainment & a dose of a stress reliever after a stressful day. But the thing that keeps me moping around is that I'm no good in either worlds. (Ah! that reminds me~ right now I'm the total opposite of Miley Cyrus' song, "Best of Both Worlds")

I'm not that good in class and I'm not that bad either but my parents think I can do much better if I could just focus. I lost my drawing skills around when I was 11 yrs. old when we had our 1st computer and I started to experiment on the photoshop when I was around 12/13. I have ignored a lot of "supposed to be" my potentials but letting go of "drawing" was my biggest regret of all.

I always thought that if ever I haven't let go of drawing, then atleast I can be a little good at it by now and do colorings in photoshop (that would be fun) because right now I still feel so intimidated in my new section where almost all the "tops" were resectioned.

--- AHHHH!!! random talk ---

Our speaker this morning made a HUGE impact on me & those friggin inspiration videos they let us watched almost made me to shed a tear. My goodness I know there are a lot of people who's really struggling right now just to get education, a job, to meet their dreams or simply just to get a LIFE. (*face palm* "what the hecky are you doing with your life Irene?! >.<""")

Nursing wasn't her 1st choice but realized it was the job for her and was saying "God has a plan why he let you took up nursing". Back then she was a working student; working at the Pizza Hut and taking her duties at the same time. She said proudly, "Its all about time mangament. Even the brushing of my hair back than was timed" and yet I was able to make it! (& here I am saying I'm busy and stuff! What the hecky, I have all the time in the world yet... (TToTT) )

I feel suffocated from the pressure I'm feeling from my classmates and friends in my section. Before I was able to do good (in class) & was able to put things in mind after a discussion (in my old sec.) but now I am so frustrated why I can't get our lessons a.s.a.p. in to my head!

My parents gave me everything that I needed but why am I not repaying them same effort?
I want to do better... I really really want to do better T^T
Is it too late to practice & draw again?
I can't even play the guitar & piano/ keyboard well even if its already there -.-.
I can't even do public speaking anymore when before I usually do the reports.
Why this & why that... *conscience attacks*

"Why fail yourself Irene?!"
I seemed to be growing backwards....

I know something's wrong and I'm kinda aware where I went wrong yet why am I still not motivated to move?...

Posology can Kill?

2010-01-23T16:29:00.013+08:00

mood: sore icon: shore of the sky
music: From Y to Y by [Clear]
yes a stress reliever from Clear-sama's sweet & calm voice 8D

I just got home from our make-up class in Posology and since my big Waterloo is mathematics, I therefore conclude that Posology can KILL - figuratively & literally! Escaping from mathematical equations was partly my intention of taking the nursing course plus, I love Biology.

Gah! But I was so wrong. I came to realize that nursing actually is a "combination of different talents/skills" - (woah~ as if)... but really! You need to be good at communication, in math, in practical application/ skills, you should be an investigator, researcher and so forth. Then I said to myself, "Diyos ko ano ba tong pinasok ko!" (My goodness what have I entered/commited myself into!) X.x

And I think it's too late for me to back out now... nonetheless I'm still waiting for the time when I will finally "fall-in love" with the coarse. Nursing's not that bad... its just that it takes a whole lot of effort & courage to serve & save one's life.

I'm having a free evening today :D No projects & stuffs (i think)... So I was planning of joining fanlistings made by a few friends like: Kibumie, Kula & Ametori. Plus replying to my pending messages, comments (So sorry for my outstansing late replies again! T^T), to watch animes I missed to watch this week (Durarara!! & Kimi ni Todoke) and finally to have a good Saturday night with my family watching Sandra Bullock - "The Blind Side."

Belated HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to 2 people close to my heart:
Rizza & Shienel ♥ (Jan. 22)

Frenetic Week

2010-01-17T13:31:00.007+08:00

mood: awake icon: yaringe
music:Hatsune Miku - Saihate [Piano Visualizer PV]&『from Y to Y』を歌ってみた【clear】 - randomly changing between the two songs :) //I don't know where to start but here I go~

This week was full of obstacles for me that when I go look into my twitter and read my tweets on those days, I remember how problematic I was. Monday to Tuesday was my 1st duty on our main hospital and we were under by a Spartan sort of slave driver clinical instructor. My knees hurt oh so much from I don't know... maybe because of the prolonged standing & walking or maybe perhaps of the intense pressure I felt on those 1st 2 days. ( i always go home sulking -.-)

Wednesday was our overnight retreat but instead of concentrating on our our renewal, almost all of us wasn't paying much attention because we will have an exam the next day. (wtfudge...) Good thing while we were in the middle of our retreat our classmate announced that the exam was moved on Friday but still we had a class at Thursday afternoon till 7 pm D: (sleeping time: 12am, waking time: 5am)

Thursday in the afternoon Ate Weng told me that the debut I was invited to attend wasn't on Sunday but was on Friday 7pm. I panicked so hard because I still haven't yet a dress asked on the occasion and because our exam would end at 7pm on Friday. My period came and had an intense dysmenorrhea but still forced myself to go school.

Then came Friday, pretest on Skills lab, reporting on Nutrition & exam on Pharmacology. I had to let go of my friend's debut for the exam and there I was so looking forward to that rare occassion where I was literally invited. Somehow I kinda felt how it was to be heart broken - I didn't felt any hunger because of disappointment... I ate late in the evening that day.

-- END // frenetic week --

Well I almost forgot of how stressful I was because I again drowned myself to stress relievers (youtube + tinier me). Now my attention is fully deviated on Nico Nico singers & vocaloids. I often lurk around youtube in search of good music to kill stress.

I fell head over heels to these people's voices:

1st→ Halyosy 『KONBINI』
2nd→ Clear 『Fire Flower』
3rd→ Nam 『SPICE!』
◘ sub favs: Anima, That, Ask, Amu, Tourai,
◘ likes: Usa, Yamai and maybe Chouchou :3

Wish I could enumerate all of the PV(s) but right now I'm out of time. I might make a post about them soon but at the moment feel free to look into my → Favorites list on Youtube if you wish ♥ :) Tonight's gonna be another busy night!

2010 First Post

2010-01-04T18:26:00.019+08:00

mood: hungry icon: siamois
music: 『KONBINI 』by Halyosy // another version is in my "Media" section.
→ a very funny yet sweet short video clip. I've been listening to it for weeks!
Belated Happy New Year! 1/1/10 - related post below

[1] Today
So classes started today again~ The day ended up smoothly for me and i wasn't that stressed anymore unlike before. I guess though Christmas vacation was short, it really helped me get away from almost 70% of my stress factors (school) :D

[2] Vocaloid Goodies
- again, there are far more other versions out there but here are a few honorable mention. Enjoy!

『KONBINI 』
【音質向上】「コンビニ」を歌うとこうなります。【あにま】(from he boy's Perception)
翔之昇コンビニ完整 (from he girl's Perception)
「コンビニ」を歌ってみた（フルVer.）‐ニコニコ動画(RC2)(Halyosy's version)

MEGPOID Gumi
Naname World )
Your Love will Surely Skyrocket☆
Tori no Uta (originally an Air ost/ song)
TANABATA (Luka & Megpoid & Miku)

Juvenile
Originally by: Len & Rin
【UTAU】Kanipan x Hibiki version
Juvenile (MS70's Mix) [Feat. Len and Rin Kagamine]

Megurine Luka's
Poker Face (Lady GaGa cover)
Fanmade MV for a vocaloid song "The Little Mermaid"

Meltdown versions
Originally by: Rin Kagamine
大合唱_鏡音リンオリジナル曲『炉心融解』(Chorus)
Meltdown 7 Male Chorus

SPICE! *meet the playboy version of Len
Originally by: Len Kagamine
- With English translation (PG 14+)
【男性歌い手】SPICE!【合唱】 (Nam's version)
SPICE！【鏡音レンオリジナル】にイメージPVつけてみた。(PG 14+)
Spice! [Amu & Saiya]

Belated HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! ♥ :)

A memory to wear is now a memento to give, To remind us of the reason why we all want to live, To cherish the friends we meet throughout our own life, Those who stay with us through happiness and both strife, A memento to give is now a memory to wear, A tribute to those for which we really do care.
- John Choi

& a friend of mine made this continuation:

And thus a tribute I give, to those who care. With endless memories we've come to share. And may we leave this humble good year at a happy end, and begin this new year with a new trend. Let's all live these years like every morning was the first day we met, every afternoon was the first time we became best friends, and every night was the last night we'd spend together.

- Arc The Fallen

An Unexpected Trip(?)

2009-12-30T21:16:00.003+08:00

Ok to make things short, at this very moment I am at Manila typing on my father's laptop X.x (haha! i finally had my my fingers on it xD) Yesterday papa woke us up early in the morning, telling me & my sister to pack up our things because for Manila.

Overall gist:

12 hours of land travel
it took us hours to get the broadband working
limited laptop usage x.x

Just Be Friends version(s)

2009-12-25T18:37:00.016+08:00

mood: impressed icon: tensai_universe
music: Just Be Friends Another Version (rap)
MERRY CHRISTMAS! 12/25/ 09 - related post below
While randomly browsing & listening to videos of vocaloids at youtube, I came across this new version of JBF. "z-O-M-G!" → that's how I initially reacted and I was so surprised that I kept on laughing! O.O JBF fans you just gotta see this!

A few screenshots: (JBF RAP VERSION)

Just Be Friends version links:
(there are far more other vers. out there but here are a few honorable mention)

Originally by: Just Be Friends - Megurine Luka (vocaloid)

Piano versions:
Just Be Friends - On Piano
Just Be Friends - Piano Version (Nico Chrous)

Solos:
Just Be Friends by Yamai
Just Be Friend by Halyosy
「Just Be Friends」を歌うとこうなりました【あにま】

Chorus:
合唱『Just Be Friends』- Nico Nico Chorus * the best so far
【アレンジ＋歌詞ニコ割】Just Be Friends【15人大合唱】

Rap:
【らっぷびと＆ゼブラ】Just Be Friends【PV】Another Version

Mixes:
【巡音ルカ】Just Be Meltdown【鏡音リン】- Just Be Friends + Meltdown
Just Be Friends x Package [vid. removed]

ADDED: ｡∠(*￣￣)〃∇〃)η　.｡.:*･ﾟMerry X'mas:*･ﾟ｡:.* to all again! ♥ xDDD
Something to listen on X-mas day: 巡音ルカ Megurine Luka ~ Daily X'mas

Last Post '09 (?)

2009-12-24T16:11:00.008+08:00

mood: pissed icon: hybridtrauma
music: Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence - FYI by Utada Hikaru

Hehe great. I'm making this post while I'm pissed ^^; What made me felt this way was the manga i was just reading entitled, "Bokura wa Itsumo." I HATE it how the leading male characters, Kyou & Haruna are being manipulated by the female antagonist (their dang girlfriends X_x!) *spoilers so i'll stop there :D

Now that i think about it, why is that almost all manga(s) with "Bokura" really has the capability to make me feel pissed?! Namely, Bokura ga Ita - I love this manga & the entire story itself but gosh when Yamamoto came into the picture, it was like I was willing to kill somebody anytime at that moment.

Hah... manga it can stir up & turn my emotions upside down x.x;

Well, it'll be CHRISTMAS soon... very soon. I hope everybody's having a great time w/ their family, friends and other significant persons in their lives.

There's SO much we should be thankful of~ MERRY-MERRY CHRISTMAS & may we have another FRUITFUL YEAR TO COME! ♥ :)

Wobbly Day

2009-12-08T15:44:00.009+08:00

mood: groggy icon: everylover
music: Supercell / Ryo : 02. LOVE & ROLL
- 've been listening to this song for 3 days now~

Just woke up urg. I'm used to sleeping late at night but not till dawn x_O
We had an overnight vigil yesterday till early this morning at school & boy do we look like zombies (hungry & tired)! My goodness and even at that state we ran to Mcdonalds to eat breakfast at 4 am. heh! nothing much... i just want to share wobbly feeling |'3

RECOMMENDATION OF THE WEEK: i want mOar of this xDD
Cencoroll [a 30 min. whimsical anime movie] @ animecrazy
ED theme: Supercell / Ryo : LOVE & ROLL

ADDED: Kimi Ni Todoke [manga] update:
Kimi ni Todoke Vol.06 Ch.023: First Snow - a definitely MUST READ chapter!
hoho~ and tell me what you think of Ryuu after reading ;3

Jam-packed Post

2009-12-01T17:28:00.023+08:00

mood: accomplished
music: random songs by Kim Jeong Hoon ♥ @ imeem playlist

I got home early from school today and for the first time this 2nd semester, we DON'T have any school works for the day!!! (Oh God thank you! T^T) So... this will be the post I promised to make.

[1] SCHOOL

We had our re-sectioning this 2nd sem. & I unexpectedly got into this "brainy" section. I was slightly upset upon knowing the big change of environment from my laid-back class to a starve-for-the-best-grade class. I though I was going to be okay since I know some people from my old class who was transferred into the same section but uh... these old classmates of mine are pretty studious themselves and they were the "tops" in our previous section. So though were not that close I tried to get along cause their the only ones I know T.T But unfortunately, the 1st 2 weeks was like HELL! Everyone was so paranoid in studying and there wasn't a vacant period where everyone was reading their notes trying to prepare for a quiz or an assignment. I had a culture shock and realized that I might be having an inferiority complex that even though I study for a test, the result was always dissapointing! (it happened many times already) Plus my new group of friends have so different likes, interests & habits from my last group - I was dying to adjust myself, to be flexible & blend in. Really... I didn't know what to do that time.

[2] AT HOME AFTER SCHOOL
Because of the pilled-up stress from school, I usually drain it through watching animes, surfing the net randomly & playing emulator games at home. (yes i drowned myself with those) And I almost spent all my nights doing those things as a stress reliever... but sadly it wasn't enough. Then I decided to open up my problem to my mom & dad. They said, I was just being too complacent of my studies and its about time for me strive harder to cope up. That being in that section was a blessing, because it gave the opportunity to feel how it is in real life. (that things really do change & we have to adjust in everything) Hah... *sighs* -.-

[3] THE RECOVERY
Well I just thought that it might be really the time for me to do things on my own and not solely depend on my friends. My goal that time was to adjust every week little by little and about my inferiority complex I'm currently working on it :) Finally last week from the days, Thrusday to Friday I felt the change. I was in very good terms with them that it felt like I finally blended in and that I am now a part of their group. (My hard work was at last REPAID!!! x3333)

[4] ANIMAL PRINCESS CLUB
Is a proud member of APC! :D We are advocates of "anti-animal abuse" and if ever your an animal lover & wish to join the crew, then please feel free to visit the site and click on the application form ♥ :)

[5] TINIER ME
This was the online community which served as my pastime & stress reliever. I suddenly bumped into into their advertisement when I was randomly visiting websites and was attracted by their anime-like characters. It just recently started and The features of the community is almost similar to Gaia but 'cuter' in my opinion. I love this com. because its more easier to earn Chibi Coins and the items aren't to expensive. The initial C coins gained after registration is 300 but if you were refered/ invited by someone who is already a member, then you'll recieve an additional amount of 200+ C coins (with that you can already buy your own clothes from head to toe & some home interiors)

If your willing to join the community, then I'm very much willing to send you an invitation :) Just leave me a msg. on my Tagbox or comment on this post :)

[6] THE VERY 1ST PERSON WHO SWEPT ME OFF MY FEET
Muahaha! Meet Kim Jeong Hoon a.k.a John Hoon (in Japanese) or Prince Yul (his character in Princess Hours) Yes! this is man here made me sqeeeeee this past 4 days. The Korea novela that we usually watch during lunch ended about 2 weeks ago & was replaced by Princess Hours. I wasn't into this drama even before when it became a hit series but when Prince Yul came into the picture, my goodness! Lunch time is my most awaited meal of day! xD Its hard to explain but I love almost all aspect of this person ♥ :)

[7] ANIMES I'M WATCHING:
Bakemonogatari, Canaan, The Sacred Blacksmith, To Aru Kagaku no Railgun, Kimi ni Todoke, To Aru Majutsu no Index, True Tears

[8] ANIME RELEASES THIS WINTER

[click to ENLARGE ]

Relinked: Kibumie || Linked: Animal Princess Club

credits: chartfag.wordpress.com, lingeringroses, denganamangana, rommipullo

Definitely by Tomorrow

2009-11-27T21:42:00.005+08:00

mood: sleepy icon: tempuracrispy
music: Everything by Kim Jeong Hoon @ Youtube
*sqee* yes, Kim Jeong Hoon please! :D I love this guy ♥ his songs, acting, personality, everything!

Hello. How are you guys? I have been away for two weeks... I know and I'm sorry :( I attempted to make some post several times but the shortness of my time just won't allow me. Um as of now, I can feel the weight of my eye bags and that my head slightly hurt from the back. Yes, I'm in dire need of sleep. But before that I wish to tell you guys that I that I might write a long post. Most probably tomorrow after our seminar.

I have a lot of things to tell! :D I'll resume to my internet life tomorrow afternoon and reply to you guys a.s.a.p. I miss you all !＼(o￣∇￣o)/

A Sunday Haste

2009-11-08T18:02:00.011+08:00

mood: drained icon: nedafol
music: First Love Final Love - Genesis of Aquarion OST II
- this song's magical! And its really helping me to relax :)

I just got home from all the day's work and my head hurts Dx. My eyes are quite pinkish slightly almost to red so I guess my sinusitis' attacking again. Its hard having this kind of allergy... I can't even last a day in the mall because of headache killing me. But I did last half a day and I did it today :D

We did & finalize our CDX (community diagnosis) at SM (a mall) today and good thing my body was able to bear with factors that could trigger the allergy like: cold environment, crowded areas, strong perfumes or cologne and dust. Following medications is really the best! Though I did miss one table but that ignorance caused me a mild attact + pain.

After doing the project I went home first to drop by the goods I bought from the mall (errand), had some quick snacks because I'm awfully hungry from baring with my hunger since I'm trying to save some money and immediately rushed (I'm late!) to the church for the weekly meeting.

When I arrived, no one was there. So to make it short, a friend who was also supposed to be in that meeting was skipping (she has her reasons) and told me that the meeting was held at one of our member's house. Ah... yes! now I'm really late. But at the back of my find was thinking, it was something good though. Now that I can't make it, I can go home early and do my assignment in Pharmacology! :D

Its REALLY bad skipping church activities so again... don't copy this bad act -.-' Oh well... I don't now... maybe what happened was meant to be. I just hope what I did wasn't something grave... skipping church activities & all. (on second thought, it might be really bad plus i don't know where the house is T^T)

Genesis of Aquarion

2009-11-04T19:22:00.016+08:00

mood: working icon: colormeter
music: Sousei no Aquarion by AKINO > Aquarion playlist

I was quite lucky to get out of school by 10 am and rushed home. We only had orientation today, about things to be reminded of and had countless of requirements. I, on the other hand was really not interested and felt sleepy until the 2nd half of the orientation. haha I kept yawning in secret ^^;

Anyway I'd like to tribute this post to the translation of the 1st opening song of Aquarion (anime). I recently have a liking of this anime and have been watching it for days now. The opening song entitled "Sousei no Aquarion" & in English "Genesis of Aquarion" contain these lyrics:

All this time these twelve thousand years
I know Aishiteiru! (I Love You!) ♪

When I heard this, I was like wow... for 12,000 years?! I was totally got carried away by the song and even labeled it as something phenomenal in my comment. It was how I felt about it after hearing it for the 1st time.

The song in fact reflected the love of the 2 protagonist Apollonius & Celiane, that lasted over 12,000 years even to their reincarnated forms who are now: Apollo & Silvia. Amazing huh? I find this anime exciting because it even has its mythological background.

You'll love the song even more once you've watched the anime. ENJOY! :)

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Sousei no Aquarion (JAP)

Genesis of Aquarion (ENG)

Kimi ga kurikaeshi otona ni natte nandomo nandomo tooku he itte
Mimamoru boku ga nemurenai boku ga kushya kushya ni natta to shitemo
Kimi no na wo utau tame ni...

Genesis (Genesis)
of Aquarion (of Aquarion)
Genesis (Genesis)
of Aquarion (of Aquarion)

I remember sitting with you (sitting with you)
Underneath the tree of life (Underneath the tree of life)
We listened to every fainted cry
Of the creatures there on the day the world began

Looking at everything that I've lost (everything that I've lost)
And almost everything that I've loved (everything that I've loved)
I'll hold them all (in my arms)
tightly in my arms
Wondering where I am, so please tell me where to go

All of the answers you seek lie hidden in the sun (a-qua-ri-on)
If I hadn't met you my life
would've been in the (Darkness forever) darkness forever
In my wings (In my wings) are the powers of immortality
But by meeting you (You) my whole life has changed (changed)
You give light to me hope to me strength into my life

All this time these twelve thousand years
I know Aishiteiru! (I Love You!)
Eight thousand years from the time that
I've met you my love grows strong than ever before (oh My love)
Words can't say of this time
I've been waiting to share my love with you (Aishiteiru!)
I'd give you my life,
I would give you the world to see you smiling every day (smiling every day)
One hundred million and two thousand years
from now Aishiteiru! [Aishiteiru!] (I Love You!)
I want you to know since you came in my life every day, every night
you give light into the darkest skies (skies) (Aquarion)

All these twelve thousand years I've been loving you

credits: photobucket & 4shared

Belated Happy Halloween

2009-11-02T11:39:00.009+08:00

mood: listless icon: every lover
music: (at random) listening to Round Table feat Nino playlist

I luuurv my Halloween desktop! Ichigo look so HOT as Frankenstein & Hitsugaya... haha he's so cute in that werewolf suit. The wallpaper is by Yamaro of KS-Designs and good thing there's a widescreen resolution! (thank you! I'm having it as my desktop x3)

I was wondering a while ago, what date exactly is Halloween and went for a little research. I basically knew that it is celebrated during November 1 but according to Encarta,

" HALOWEEN - October 31: the eve of All Saints' Day, originally celebrated by Celtic peoples but now popular with children in the United States, Canada, and the United Kingdom. The children dress up, often as witches or ghosts, and go from door to door asking for candy and saying "trick or treat." the night of October 31. "

I've been living for over 18 years in this world and I just knew about that fact. (I'm so ashamed -.-') Anyway I guess different time zones affected people's perception on what date is it exactly celebrated.

Today is my last day of absolute freedom and as for tomorrow, I'll be restricted once again - Sem. break's over. So I have to finish all business left and prepare for school (sometimes I feel so tired & lazy by just talking about school). Well I hope things will go well in this new semester :(

3 new blog buddies! ♥ Please give your warm welcome to: Keiu, Katie & Lorena

Beast Master [manga]

2009-10-27T11:12:00.015+08:00

mood: amuzed icon: herina
music: Falling by Keahiwai > actually loved this song through this AMV
& is my theme song for this manga

Tears would rush out when I'm thinking of that last side story I've just read. Actually today, I just finished reading the manga, Beast Master (including its side stories). The story hit me so much that I just gotta make this post T.T

Leo, the protagonist hide a very sweet disposition behind his scary features & this lady with him, Yuiko (also a protagonist) was the 1st outsider to accept him as to what he is. The ending might be very predictable but the way how they met & developed their relationship was something very unique. You also probably be shock of how brave Yuiko is as you go along the story and that made me really admire her more! :) I initially ignored this manga despite its high rating & positive feedbacks from its readers. I really don't remember my intention of disregarding such wonderful story now that I've read it.

OH! And don't forget to read the side stories especially the last one, Extra - Cactus Summer Surprise. Trust me its one of the BEEEST side stories you might ever read! Ah... and also make sure to have a tissue with you just in case. ;)

I'm starting to have this fetish for Motomi Kyousuke's works (*-*)~

Kimi ni Todoke (a series) is OUT!

2009-10-22T17:57:00.014+08:00

mood: lazy
music: School Rumble Feel My Feeling by Horie Yui > plalist

Finally the long awaited ANIME SERIES release of KIMI NI TODOKE (Reaching You by Shiina Karuho) is hereeee!!! :D I was completely ecstatic the moment I knew about the release and instantly search for a website where I can watch the anime.

WATCH IT!: AnimeCrazy / Youtube (as of now there are only 3 episodes released)
Songs: Opening 『きみにとどけ』// Closing
Screencaps: Kimi ni Todoke / 君に届け / Reaching You (don't click if you haven't watched the episodes!)
Fanlisting: A M B I T I O N
Official Anime Site: (in Japanese)

• Icon credits: mechapiyo & cowgirl

Hotheaded

2009-10-20T18:27:00.009+08:00

mood: complacent
music: Ai to Yuuki to Cheery Pie & Wish by Arashi (TOTALLY RECOMMENDED)

Know what? A while a ago I was in rage that I got into a fight with mama and eventually with papa x_x Ah but we already made-up. I've been pretty hotheaded myself this past 2 or 3 days and people usually ask "why are you so angry?" or "why are your brows all furrowed?" Papa had been telling me, "smile will you?! You'll look ugly when you frown."

Well actually I don't know what wrong with me either... It just came out.

I haven't had enough sleep nor proper diet for almost 4 days preparing for our finals exam. I study at night then sleep at 10:30 pm, wake up at 2 am to study then end at 4 am then wake up at 6 am. Rarely had breakfast & snacks during those days.

I have a very very bad study habit but I won't just allow my grades just to flunk out [ ha! easy for me to say (-.-") ] Ah crap... my post is getting nowhere.

Guess I'll end here first! Too bad I still have a lot of things to say in mind but my parents would soon stay in this room. They might see me writing this post... don't want to get caught writing our personal thoughts don't we? :)

I missed blogging TT_TT Thank you to those people who kindly dropped by & gave me a message on my chat box/ comments even though I was away ♥

Grounded Night

2009-07-13T17:10:00.012+08:00

mood: rushed
music: Sakura Kiss for/ on String > Ouran Soundtract

Actually I'm supposed to be grounded away from the computer for a week starting last Saturday. But lucky papa went out for a company vacation today :D --> very bad girl.

Don't copy me folks! Oh and its my first attempt of breaking of any of his absolute orders like grounding and such. The punishment wasn't clear enough because before he left, he actually gave me an errand to scan all of his receipts and documents that night and so I did. He even saw me browsing sites that wasn't part of his errand.

He might be probably lax about the idea that I won't break any of his punishment because he knows I'm not that type of person. Well..um... I probably did.... today. ah no I really did. O_O
I don't now if his serious about the "one whole week" but i just wish he won't be angry about this.

- after a few mins. due to some interruptions -

Now that I think about it, taking pictures might not be a bad idea :-? I mean after writing the 1st part of this post I showed mama some pictures for our Capping. The pictures were posted on Janelle's (my genius classmate) friendster and after viewing the capping pics, I went on to check some of her albums. and Gah! I've been running away from the camera ever since highschool and of course... that leaves me to only FEW pics and written memories of my past school years ='(

Maybe I'll expose myself more to the camera o_O What do you think?

And speaking of which, here are a few pics wearing our ward uniforms:
[clicky on the pixels to veiw]

Also a BIRTHDAY BANNER to my mr. bean classmate :3
[ Jed para ni saimo! Sorry kung suuuuper late T_T // clicky to full veiw]

got to GO!!~~

Obliterate You From My Mind?

2009-07-06T17:58:00.007+08:00

mood: determined
music: Skylark (instrumental)

My status at YM is currently: " i was at the verge in forgetting you once REALLY! but opted not to... but ahh~ now i think i finally CAN!!! dang it. just wait & you'll see >:) "

I'm all fed up and that's it! Nothing really serious... but I'm tiredly sick of assuming things on my own and thinking there might be something else or maybe, its just that. I am simply sick of thinking "what's what?!" time and again! X_x"

I know girls think to much when 'this' time of their lives appear but in my case, actually the other person doesn't know about it. For me its a good thing but the thing is, I'm sick of thinking about matters too much and not knowing what his true intentions are! Its really tiring you know... and I know it caused me to burn about 50,000 + ATP per min or hour.

Hah... but nonetheless I am now perfectly ready to eradicate him from mind and if possible including in my heart.

It was really nice meeting him on my very 1st day journey to college life. He gave me all those sweet smiles (i haven't seen before) and stories about him even his close girl friends doesn't know about. He was the 2nd person who made my heart raced after a long long time of contempment from my '1st love(?)'. It was a huge shock to my heartstrings knowing he felt the same way as I did to him before [he didn't tell me face to face but he mentioned it to his friends]. I thank him for giving me all those precious times and company but I guess its all up to that and nothing more than that. So! its time for me to say GOODBYE~

-- x --

GAH! I feel refreshed and I'll be starting a new day tomorrow! :]
We were dismissed early today and I had the time of writing something. I'm tan!!! Seriously my skin complexion's colored tan all over except for the swimsuit mark. We are having a swimming subject held every Sunday from 7 am till 5 pm for a month so our free time is quite tight. I'll be reply to all comments as soon as I have enough time -- so sorry for the delayed responses!

whoosh! off to study~

Melody Flurry

2009-06-17T18:18:00.007+08:00

mood: contemplative
music: Nodame Rhapsody @ Nodame Cantabile playlist
- which i really really really love!

Today is my 3rd day in class as a 2nd year nursing student. I noticed a change in the way how I approach things at school and I thought, "Ah! maybe because of the animes I've watched recently." No kidding! This might sound weird but it might be the reason because I usually and unconsciously adopt to the personalities and sometimes mannerism of some characters in the show that gave a big impact of me.

As far as could remember, I was like that ever since I was in grade 6 and now I also want to take my course seriously just like Chiaki in NC. I'm currently waiting & downloading Nodame Canabile episode 23 [Final] and I was so into musical type of shows lately. I watched and often check for episode updates of K-ON!

These animes gave me all the freaking goosebumps! I just love K-ON's performance during their welcoming to the new freshmen on episode 8 where Yui's intro in guitar made my heart raced. Also numerous episodes from Nodame Cantabile... but the best so far was its episode 18! (I watched it twice) ^.^v

Honestly! I even screamed SO hard and covered myself with the pillow after watching one of NC's episode. I think that particular epi. was able to reach my soul that I was able to scream so much. lol.

I HIGHLY recommend Nodame Cantabile for classical music + romance devotees & K-ON! for modern type of music fanatics.

I watched K-ON! on Seito's Channel on Youtube & Nodame Cantabile on AnimeCrazy.
Also OSTs which I repeatedly listen day by day on Imeem: DNAngel & Nodame Cantabile1 , Nodame Cantabile 2

And then again these animes unravel my passion... FRUSTRATION in music and in playing my most wanted instruments T^T. - We don't have classes tomorrow hoho~ kudos to Naga's Charter Day Anniversary!

Nothing but Love: Lavi x Lenalee

2009-06-10T09:12:00.018+08:00

mood: pensive
music: Trading Yesterday playlist

I was initially an Allen x Lenalee fan but after watching D. gray-man's episode 43-44, my preference stirred up to Lavi x Lenalee.

I saw how Lavi took really good care of Lenalee who was intensely pierced by an akuma and got very sick afterwards. Lavi won't just leave her be even how many times lenalee plead to leave her and save his own life instead.

Highlighted dialouges on episode 44:

Lenalee: I've made nothing but trouble for you, Lavi. I'm so sorry.
Lavi: It's fine. You should worry about yourself for now.
Lenalee: Please... *Lenalee holds Lavi's hand* If I slow your down any furthur, leave me and go.
Lavi: *holds lenalee's hand back* I'm taking you to Gramps. I'll get you there no matter what!
------
Lenalee: Lavi... Get out of here while you still can. Please I don't want you to die for me.
Lavi: Lenalee... *carries Lenalee & continues to fight*
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Lenalee: Lavi. Thank you for protecting me to the very end.
Lavi: *waves ahead & closes the door*
Gramps: He thinks he's so cool.
Lenalee: Its all right, he's just being shy. *smiles*

- *fan girl sqee~* their so SWEET in a formal way! x3

Now I understand we have different points of view on this pair and here are a few:

QUOTE (angez @Apr 29 2007)
Hm... I don't think He thinks of her as his younger sister... more like just a nakama. And because she is a girl he probably just feel that he needs to protect her.
saa-chan, worrying about someone doesn't always necessarily mean 'Love'. Yup3...

QUOTE (angez @ May 3 2007)
Lavi-->Linalee
Linalee-->Allen
Allen... oblivious of the whole situation cause he's too young to understand all this stuff.

That is totally how it seems. I think that Lavi totally like Linalee.

QUOTE (trinity88 @ May 3 2007)
EVIDENCE:
1. When they were on the ship and Lavi goes out to find Linalee.
2. In one of the recent manga chapters Lavi grabs Linalee's hand to tell her not to worry.
3. And then He sees Linalee in his dream and goes to her.

QUOTE (NERDIFIED @ May 4 2007) reply to: trinity88
1. If a close friend of yours was missing, wouldn't you want to find them?
2. Same here. You wouldn't want your own friend to worry.
3. It's only human to run toward things you know. ;P

But you do bring up good points.

- Credits and see more

But either way we really don't know what Katsura Hoshino's (D. Gray-man's creator) plan on the anime's romance & who ends up with who Dx I also heard there'll be a Sequel or Season 2? Hopefully we can finally now see our D. Gray-man official tandem. <3

GOODIES for LAVI x LENALEE supporters:

Fanlisting --> I will Protect You
Anime Moments (video) ---> 1 2 3 4
AMV (the sweetest vid. of them all) ---> May I

And finally a FST dedicated (fan song tribute - if i'm not mistake) to this sweet pair:

CLICK image/ here to view matching Video X other image fst version: 1 2

Maybe I'll feature this vid. in my Media section x3 The songs SO sweet so as the vid. and it gives me goose bumps each and every & time I watch =] --- The banner above including the versions are my first ever completed designs over 4 months after loosing my inspiration & photoshop *cheers*

Manga Marathon

2009-06-04T10:57:00.027+08:00

mood: weird
music: listening to my playlist > instrumental

Its been a long long while since I last read a manga and before I new it, I was already sitting in front of the computer reading manga all day (since Saturday) lol. And there were these manga which made we laugh so damn hard, some made me quite teary and others in rage - yes, I was that emotional.

So lemme share to you a few manga(s) I've been through these days:

AKAGAMI NO SHIRAYUKIHIME - On Going chapters
Genre(s): Adventure, Fantasy, Romance, Shoujo
- I had an icon/ avatar that looks exactly like the cover and it so happen when I was browsing Chocobaby's blog, she was featuring the manga. You just gotta love the
character's clothes! Especially Zen's <33

S UKITTE II NA YO - On Going chapters
Genre(s): Comedy, Romance, School Life, Shoujo
- you might find the graphics a little odd but hey the storyline's GOOD! The plot kinda gives you a new scent of shoujo setting because of the female protagonist personality. I myself find this manga appealing.

SPROUT - On Going chapters
Genre(s): Comedy, Drama, Romance, School Life, Shoujo, Slice Of Life
- this time I found the manga at Kibumei's manga review. I even mistook some of its images to Bokura ga Ita since the characters somewhat looks alike. I LOVE the flow of the story~ though it maybe heavy. I also find manga's female protagonist, admirable because of her strong personality.

SENPAI TO KANOJO - Completed
Genre(s): Drama, Romance, School Life, Shoujo
- alot of readers find this manga as a "tear jerker" (will make you cry alot O_O) and the manga's plot is also closely similar to Bokura ga Ita. I wonder why I didn't cry on this manga... just felt a little pain but might be because I already used up my tears on the other twin.

KYOU, KOI WO HAJIMEMASU - On Going chapters
Genre(s): Comedy, Drama, Romance, School Life, Shoujo, Smut
- you'll be shocked on the first part what the female protagonist did to the "genius" and "honor" student of their batch. But I deeply admire the determination of the manga's herione to be a virgin till the very day of her wedding. She calls it the "virgin walk" Lets see how far her determination can take her =]

OTONA PINK - On Going chapters
Genre(s): Comedy, Drama, Romance, School Life, Shoujo
- now the protagonist is your typical shoujo heroine. A love story that'll make you choose between a cute yet very sweet high school guy & a hot sensei which is currently living under the same roof with the protagonist. I personally prefer Chiho over sensei T^T

PUZZLE+ - On Going chapters
Genre(s): Action, Shounen, Supernatural
- i'm actually reading a shounen manga -.-' Still going through this manga and I think I'll finish it today. The graphics look good but the story's a little complicated and is really mysterious in a unique way. You can't help but to ask, "Why? What's with the box?"

Also some minor features: KAWAIITTE ITTEYO,HIDARITE NO LOVE LETTER, TONARI NO ATASHI, HANBUN WA AI DE DEKITEMASU

Okay! I think there'll all in~ These are the bunch of manga I sat in for 5 days.
I'm not so particular in judging the mangaka (did i spell it right? o.o)/ the artist's storyline so I often allow myself to go with the story's pace. I just dunno why I often read comments where readers want to end/ have the story their way. I guess that's what we call reader's critic/ judgement. But then again it might be also good to hear different perceptions and opinions. =]

You and I Make a Canvas of Ruby Red Flower Fields [ ADDED POST ]

mood: touched
music: Pieces of a Dream by CHEMISTRY

Its very rare of me to make 2 posts on a single day but I was so excited to tell the world how this manga has deeply touched my cunning heart Dx

24 COLORS - HATSUKOI NO PALETTE

- the tittle itself sounds so nice right? ahh... I don't want to explain how emotional I was while reading this manga- its just that I felt a connection. The characters love art most especially drawing and then later I remember before, I was also admired by friends because I have this deep passion on drawing and yet gave up because of the computer. I actually didn't gave up but I deviated by interest and didn't continue to draw. Till this very moment I regreted that very act. Making projects related to drawing always ALWAYS gives me the guilt of remembering what had happened before.

And gosh! Wow... how this manga makes me wanna draw again!

"I can't express my feelings very well... and I can't put my feeling into words so easily. I feel that if I put them into words, I might miss something important..."

- Haijima Chihaya on Vol. 1 Chapter 2: Baby Blue

And the very phrase that touched by heart...

There are things that won't be conveyed if I don't put them into words, so I'll tell you... Actually it all started in the beginning. ----

" The moment that I met You, the pink color of the Cherry Blossoms became deeper, the sky was bluer, and a red flower bloomed in my heart... I wonder if that's what they call Love? "

- Haijima Chihaya on Vol. 1 Chapter 5: Pure White

After hearing such sweet words and wiped a few tear drops... i made up my mind to make this post~
CHEMISTRY's Pieces of a Dream really added a feeling to the "moment"

The Busy Days

2009-05-27T15:26:00.006+08:00

mood: content
music: If I could Change the World by CHEMISTRY (recommended)

For 3 whole weeks we had non-stop dance practice for our thanksgiving/ farewell party for our dear Antioch (Christian Community) spiritual director, fr. Rex P. I attended practices right after our daily summer and skipped 4 days of practice due to our final exams.

The practice usually end between 8 or 9 in the evening but despite the late dismissal i usually practice at home, parts i don't get during the practice. I hate practicing/ dancing steps on the spot i think i'm not good at like swayings and such so i usually check myself at home lol.

Nonetheless it was my immense pleasure going home all sweaty and after a day, having muscle pains. @_@" I miss having the opportunity of dancing to my hearts content and getting all worked up again -- REALLY! & for me it was a big opening to once again practice the forgotten talent(?) ^^;

Wish I could upload some of our taken videos but nah... its something not worth seeing if ever i were in the scene xD I want to express my deepest gratitude to Ate Yani & Igie Boy plus Kuya Ken for bearing with me and my dance step slowpoke coping mind. Thank you guys for your patience!!!

-- x --

Also thank you for linking me back(again): Denise
and give some warm hugs to my new darlink: Kana nee-chan

Dying for a Rest

2009-05-23T21:52:00.005+08:00

mood: aggravated & exhausted
music: Real Identity ~ Kaleido Star by Sugar

Yes! I'm craving for a week long BREAK! (gah so demanding of me x.x) But really i think i need a long moment of rest though i'm not deserving.

Oh but the good thing is a our summer class finally came to an end (we had our last 2 final exams this morning). The sad news, enrollment will be on Monday - are they abusing us students that much? and not to mention, only 2 weeks of vacation.

Seems that i only complain about things... sorry -.- but uhm. This might be my only outlet of annoyance but be rest assured that my soon to come posts will be something non-nagging xD i guess... I visited a few sites that i'm deeply willing to give a comment/ reply but i'm afraid not to reply back on them on time. <-- yeah~ thats my very usual SICKNESS.

Though were already in vacation things keep on going:

Tomorrow: Church reading @ 9 (cancelled my participation in our Medical Mission due to this commitment) , finish take home exam in physics. (its a take HOME~ yes!) prayer meeting @ 4pm
Monday: General practice for our farewell party to father Rex (wholeday), go to school & submit the paper. Inquire if i had pass my subjects for this summer.
Tuesday: Farewell party @ 8pm

Sleep!... I'm gonna s-l-e-e-p.~~~

A Fine Day w/ Special A

2009-05-08T17:30:00.002+08:00

mood: chipper
music: Special A ~SA~ Hidamari no Gate (Ryuu ver.) - his voice sound so COOL!

Hi there! I feel perfectly fine today. =]
This morning we had the last subject for our mid-term exams and I can now finally relax a bit. After I had my afternoon siesta, I watched the final episode of Special A and I just realized how cool Yahiro is.

- thanks to Marilie for lending me her SPECIAL A dvd -

I can't get over with Special A's song, "Hidamari no Gate" and searched for it in the internet and to my surprise all of the anime's OST has their own: Special A Character Album O_O". It so happen that I fell in love with Ryuu's Hidamari no Gate version.

I found most of them at Youtube and here are some of my favorites:

Tadashi's Version: Hidamari no Gate
Kei'sVersion: Gorgeous 4U
Megumi's Song: Hoshi no Nagareru Yoru ni

Goodbye Halcyon Days (part 2)

2009-05-02T15:44:00.007+08:00

Yes! It was a week of MISFORTUNES to me that I didn't have the single drive to use the computer.

But papa continued and let the computer to be repaired. Little did I know that papa was planning to upgrade everything. And now I am actually using a wide screen monitor (1260 x 786); an upgraded CPU with high memory & space (he says) plus Adobe Photoshop CS3.

I was practically happy, everything of course but the shock of what happened to the computer before deeply remained as a scar.

Until now I don't have the desire to search for brushes or any other resources anymore... most especially to make one. Maybe I'm afraid to lose everything where I put all my effort into (again). It really really hurts to lose something really dear to you and that you've been with it for years! Of course because for me they all have that "sentimental value".

As of now, I no longer can come up with any ideas to design & lack the urge of searching for resources. I had enough of this technical problems that caused us
SO MUCH TROUBLE!

I think all these was meant to happen. The moment I entered college is that my inspiration/ urge to make graphics continuously dropped until there's no more left. It was perfectly accompanied by our hectic life at school & bombarded activities at the church that every time I got home I no longer have the luxury of time to play with the photoshop. (gosh this realization SUCKS T___T)

Goodbye Halcyon Days (part 1)

2009-05-02T14:58:00.006+08:00

A week a ago I thought it was the end of my internet & photoshop experience. And i kept on thinking if i will ever survive the whole week of non-stop toxic. I've been totally frustrated the with so many things and all of them jive together!

[ First ] our computer broke the 3rd time around and with that I lost all my new set of downloaded fonts, brushes, patterns, textures, gradients, resources, images (wall, icons ect.) and all precious bookmarks/ favorites. Imagine the amount of courage I took and the time allotted just to find & collect all of them (once again for the 2nd time around - without having my old bookmarks). I felt as if I was suddenly being smashed half of the planet Earth. T^T

I thought it was the worst thing ever happened to my comp. life but the WORST was YET to come. Here comes our good old technician and fixed the "thing". Everything was back to normal but all my precious resources were all long gone.

[ Second ] Then again, I asked papa if I can once again, install photoshop then he seriously answered, "NO". I normally don't cry in front of anybody but that 3 word response extremely hit me like a final K.O. Blaming Adobe Photoshop for causing us this trouble.

And I was unable to hold back my tears crying while browsing the computer. I cried the whole night & when I woke up, my eyes were all sore. I can't simply move on with the fact I can no longer do graphics designing.

[ Third ] Antioch weekend is just around the corner so we have to go to church everyday & prepare for that 3 big nights & days where were going to facilitate & supervise. We were all cramming for that day to come & I was pressured to do my best & prepare for my talk. Yes! I was one of the (boring) speakers.

[ Fourth ] I have this classmate that has a crush(?) on me and is quite serious about it. I don't want him to act all sweet and everything since I was totally shocked & unprepared knowing about the case. I don't hate nor dislike anything about him & I don't want to hurt him either. I'm just not ready for this kind of relationship therefore I find this problem as a serious one. -.-

---> to be continued...

Far Away From Here

2009-04-28T21:53:00.004+08:00

-- x --

Will be posting 2 days more from now (after our summer midterm exams)
And expose my almost goodbye internet & photoshop experience.

-- x --

09' Holy Week Highlight

2009-04-10T21:39:00.004+08:00

Its the first time I felt good about a family gathering. Before I usually wish from the bottom of my indifferent heart, "if only there wasn't any get together!" From my point of view, gatherings are such a hassle... though family bonds are tested and at the same time cherished in this very event. But today's gathering prove to myself I was all wrong.

Maybe I felt aloof for the very reason I can't get along with the flow. Relatives around my age typically would go out and go to bars to have their own way of fun and talk about love stories, experiences and such. Those things are just not like me at all! (that's what I always say to myself before). Honestly I would rather hang out be with my younger cousins!

The thing is I happen to experience acceptance today in the same old family gathering we hold yearly and I also happen to open up! I realized it wasn't that hard at all. All I need to do was to interact openly and have fun the same way they do so. (the "teen" kind of way) AND to have an accommodating heart. (oops! there wasn't any going out at bars today)

Anyway I AM SO HAPPY I was finally able to open up. It felt REALLY good!! Hmm.. I can say there isn't anything like it. ~ this "family" kind of feeling. =)

Checklist

2009-03-30T14:09:00.008+08:00

Our computer broke & so is my blog.
I can't keep up w/ my personal desires,
responsibilities & commitments in life.
My life's in a mess at the moment so...
I'd like to note some things and keep
them all organized once and for all! =[

teh~ mighty CHECKLIST:
------------------COMPUTER
Modify programs & settings in the computer - done
Install good old Yahoo Messenger - done
Make an account at Skype (as recommended) - done
Download & extract fonts - done
Download & extract patterns - done
Download & extract textures - done
Install Audition *optional
------------------IMEEM & BLOG
Accept Friend requests at Imeem - done
Get things done at AGD - done
Reply to pending comments @ imeem
Reply pending messages at my tag box
------------------OTHERS
Personalize settings & lists @ My Anime List
Keep things monitored @ LJ - pastime act.
Join desired fanlistings
Add fanlistings to the blog
Transfer fanlisting links
Make Anime Reviews
Continue watching Katekyo Hitman Reborn - pastime act.
READ MANGA! - pastime act.
------------------TRUE TO LIFE (ETC.)
Plan for my talk @ Antioch >.>
Attend church activities
Call friends regarding Summer Class and requirements - done

Gather Up

2009-03-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

You guys might think I was gone for good...right? Well its something close to that and might be like that. Our computer broke 2 weeks before our final exams saying, "System Missing" and my parents would not want to get it fix unless all the exams are over. Its been a month so I really miss doing these stuffs again. School works are finally over since last week and we have yet 2 weeks of vacation before our summer class enrollment begins. --- Now then that's the overview of everything!

Good thing our sort of personal computer 'repair man' knows the feeling of loosing ALL files and saved all remaining & important ones in CDs. Retrieving all files from a 'system missing' is always not perfect so still we permanently lost some files, data and programs.

As for my lesson, I must keep my files organized as much as possible & make a hard copy once its heavy enough for the computer to handle. Sorry for making things so sudden...

* Off downloading: patterns, textures, and fonts to resume gfx designing.

Beat & Frustrated

2009-02-23T12:00:00.000+08:00

This hasn't been a good week for me.
First I'm worn-out and darn frustrated in making graphics. I got some little inspiration from my net surfing trek but that meter's not that full yet. For short I'm in a middle of

{.I N S P I R A T I O N - S E A R C H.}

I think I won't be making some graphics for a while. I dunno if this things natural but I somewhat lost all my sole ideas & imaginations.

I 've been working on this blog layout for 2 days now and decided to stop yesterday:

It's a modified layout by me and was supposed to be this blog's next layout. I edited the layout design but not yet the content & structure. I noticed a big fault on the structure formation that wouldn't go with my desired idea and decided to stop for a while. Guess we'll be sticking with the same layout for a while...

I haven't replied to my pending comments & messages in all the websites that I am most oblige and things are recently piling-up. Both school works & internet stuffs.

I might go a little crazy but I'll try to keep and sort things out.

A Call Worth a Smile

2009-02-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

.It was a night under the full moon and its radiant light when an ardent call worth a smile.

My day started in a typical manner. I was about to be late for or Anatomy class simply because I move like a slowpoke early in the morning. I got 1 failed... well barely hanging grade in our 3rd long test and an average (not so satisfying) grade for my mid-terms exam. Then & there I decided to take this day SERIOUSLY.
R.E. subject was next and we had a role play. I was expecting of it to be good but unfortunately some of our group mates didn't take the care much of it. Our group received a grade of 88 while the others were 90.

In the afternoon, it was only our one & major subject T.F.N. I copied notes... all those long notes flashed by the teacher on the screen (cause i did said I'd take things seriously for the day to make-up -.-') and I also partially listened to our C.I.

After the discussion was a POP QUIZ. I studied my notes as fast as I can but after the test, I can tell that I might only have a half of the correct answers.

We had our P.E. practice on Chinese Umbrella Dance for our presentation tomorrow. But then again another misfortune fit my day! My classmate forgot the CD for our music & I was forced to held the practice at my house since I have another copy of the CD.

We ended our practice peacefully. Only a few more preparations & our dance would be complete! I went back to school to school about 6:15 pm to get my umbrella back (I left it on our T.F.N. lecture room x_x) and I needed to borrow keys since there was almost no students at the building & almost all of the lights were closed.

I successfully got my umbrella back and went to the Cathedral to our weekly Monday meeting. There was this person whom think was disappointed with me for some reasons behind and since I don't want to force myself to her, I immediately leave after the meeting.

Under the full moon and its radiant light, I thought of how gloomy my day was and was thinking I might come home wearing a grumpy face. But while I was walking along the cathedral street just across our school, someone called my name, "AYIN" it said in a tiny but forceful manner.

I looked in the streets and vehicles assuming the person who called me was there. But I saw no one I knew. And when I was about to continue walking, in a matter of glance I saw Jed, classmate of mine across the street waving his hands up high to me. He was with my 3 more classmates, Shurwin, Marianne & George and all 3 waved at at a time wearing their smiles.

It was about 8 in the evening that time and I waved back wearing my sweetest smile when I realized as if God was telling me there are still people who appreciates you and gives you their gentle smiles.

For a moment I felt like all the day's burden was lifted up and went home with a SMILE.

A Day I've Been Waiting For

2009-01-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

I just got home from a birthday party today and felt like, "I must make a post about this day!"
Hah~ I finally got the little piece of space & freedom I've been craving ever since I entered college. I was able to open up the real me to people who are willing to listen to my stories and would openly laugh at my pranks.

I promised myself to make this short since I still have lots of things to work on. Sorry to my blog buddies for my late reply T_T And I might not even make my replies at the moment but I'll surely respond to you guys SOOOoon!

And here's the main event of the day:

A HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my best friend RIZZA! :)

Ambiguous Daydream

2009-01-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

[ MUSIC: Arekara - my timeless fav. song and a music/ melody that resembles me the most ]
First of all a HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! Its finally 2009 though I feel nothing has changed with me at all ^^; (execpt for my hair -- i had my hair cut) I had been reading so many manga(s) & watched numerous animes this Christmas vacation and I still feel unsatisfied with the span of time given for this holiday.

I still hate going to school & I mean what's so good with it?! (honestly >.>) aside from the fact that its a field to taught knowledge. Man... I'm such a BIG slacker and I hate that side of me! I really wish to be responsible and I do get the chance to be only when someone gives me a little push.

I plan to change my ways this year but I guess the same thing goes over & over again. Gosh I wish to be a genius!! To be able to learn things by just seeing or knowing them once! I have a high pride when it comes to learning (you know.. i dunno if its a good or a bad thing) but it often depends on my mood.

I wish to be good and always be good. I have so many hopes & wishes in life and wish to have them all someday but when mr. laziness & temptationn arrives, I say BYE BYE to my Castle in the sky!

Sometimes I force myself to much though at times it brings out the best of me. I'm still in the process of finding the "real me" because really... I don't know myself yet.

--- MAH! Its good letting my thoughts out once in a while =) And by the way while reading some manga, I've learned lots of vocabulary words! Uhm.. more like words which are alien to me and I've listed all of them. *feels somewhat proud of thyself* ^^;

- Fear teh manga's prowess!! -

--- BROKEN YOUTH: Naruto Shippuden's 6th ending song ROCKS!!! xD

White Christmas

2008-12-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

Christmas sure flies fast x_x
I finally finished watching Aishiteru ze Baby, Kaze no Stigma & Ouran High Host Club (an anime I've been craving to watch) also finished dealing all the comments on my imeem *phew*
Aishiteru ze Baby episode 22 was the best! It made me laugh SO HARD plus the timeless comedy-romance of Ouran High ( + FAV ANIME )

To watch TONS of free anime series & videos, GO TO --> ANIMESEED

Nothing much happend this season but I'm hoping of having my hair cut =)

ADDED 2 important DARLINKS ♥: [ give your warmest welcome to --- ]
Kibumei & Lavander

Seasons Greeting

2008-12-20T20:08:00.000+08:00

Feels like I haven't post for a year x.x
...Ma! I'm here again! =) Our Prelims exam ended yesterday and boy was I exhausted and I don't want to talk about it either. Today, I spent the whole day having fun with computer. I watched Ashiteruze Baby and is currently at episode 21. Though I'm not a total fan of Kippei (the anime's male protaginist) I find him as a nice guy.

He seems likely to be a pretty good future Otoo-san to me, being so concerned to Yuzuyu-chan though he fails to be a good Kareshi (boyfriend) to Kokoro so far ^^; Also watched Kaze no Stigma and is currently on episode 17.

I'm not used with this kind of habit anymore... After I ate my dinner, I felt the usual shock as if I still have something to do - Best example, school works -.-'
*sigh* Well I guess this will be the only lengthy vacation we'll be having as nursing students.

We DON'T have summer vacation for the 4 whole years of our college life x.x

Seems kinda sad huh? Anyway, ATLEAST we still have Christmas vacation! =)

[ SCAN CEDIT: MISAKO_CHAN ]

Shall I do my Stuffs now?

2008-11-25T20:31:00.000+08:00

eto... where should i start? 3 weeks had pass since I had my last post and a lot had happen during those days. And uhm.. much of those "happenings" were more on academics though o.o The good news is, I'm kinda getting the hang of my studies. Nothing much though but I'm a little proud of my performance recently this 1st semester.

Yup we did have blackouts last last week & it was about 4 hours. Starting 6pm till 9pm, everyday and only by then I was able to make my school works since the computer is my best support in doing such researches.

I was also able to listen to some awesome instrumentals from imeem while doing some homeworks. Ehe.. I really love listening to mellow musics while I'm at work (school works). And I might probably add them to my blog playlist that is just above these entries.

Erm... just that, not now because this is such a hectic month for us 1st yr. nursing students. Maybe during Christmas vacation ^^. That'll be a long long time from now but that's how busy we are. I can't even afford to keep-up with my internet responsibilities anymore.

I am greatly in debt to Nee-san Trinity for she has been handling all the things in the group where were moderating with. I don't even know how to help her anymore since I'm all left out and I'm pretty sure she's so tired of reading my messages containing "I'M SORRY(s)"

I really have to sacrifice a time for my studies.. please understand =( And of course I'll try to have satisfactory grades in return in order for the sacrifice to be worthy.

I don't really have to speak much cause it'll turn to be excuses x_x Today is one of those rare free days (the class ended at 3pm) we have and tomorrow's another free half-day. Were like completely busy for the whole weeks this month since were having Saturday classes (depending on the teacher), make-up classes, and compulsory attendance at school even on Sundays for our NSTP.

Teachers are currently rushing the lessons since we have a lot of interruptions like school activities & holidays this month and they have to make it before the 2nd week of Dec. It'll be our Preliminary exams by then.

*** The schedule's tough but thank God I am able to carry things well.

[ credit: franchette ]

GOSH i LOVE CLANNAD!!

2008-11-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

I just finished watching the episode 6 of Clannad's After Story & GOSH how I became addicted to this anime!!! I wasn't able to blog about the 2 anime dvds I just bought & uhmm... it was about a 2 week ago. The A-series were: Clannad & Myself Yourself. I left the 2nd dvd to Drey for her to watch and the 1st one's still with me.

While watching the first 3 or 4 episodes of Clannad, I got really bored to the point that I stopped watching at the middle of the episode (3). I stopped watching the anime for a day then decided to continue watching it again the next day. (weired huh? O.o)

When Fu-chan (Fuko) & Kotomi entered the story, (omgah! ._.) I was able to cry at the every end of their episode. Then & there the addicttion started.

I never realized Clannad was such a touching anime. Its like every heavy episode of this anime, I felt as if my heart is being SQUEEZED then in the end of the epi. the FINAL BLOW -.-' Most especially on the CLANNAD After Story. I guess this is one of the animes that touched my heart...

I'm really hoping for the release of its OST for I'm deeply craving to have their melodious BGMs T^T

i now recommend CLANNAD as one of the MUST WATCHED ANIMES xD
+ Romeo x Juliet

GENRE: drama, romance, comedy, slice of life, harem, fantasy,
LINKS :: Clannad anime series || Clannad After Story series || Clannad Fanlisting

PS: I'm claiming Tomaya Okazaki as one of my Bishies now x3

As for my life, we had black-outs everyday since this Friday and I'm so irritated of the fact that I can't finish anything without the computer x.x ( pure blue computer addict)
I'll be finishing my assignments first then switch to my darling~ (computer)
:: So please wait for my replies everyone!!! ToT

Added 4 new BUDDIES: [ please give them a warm welcome ♥ ]
Angie, Seletyn, TinTin & nee-san TYM

Shall we Dance?

2008-10-27T08:12:00.000+08:00

[ DON'T MIND THIS PART ^.^v ]
<--- Yeah and I felt exactly the same before writing this post. Who knows why? hha. just kidding. Uhrm.. how should I put this... *breaths* okay! Actually my classmate & I had a talk this morning at YM (to make the lousy story short) and since he doesn't have anyone to go with, (the same reason goes on my part) this afternoon at 3 my classmate and I are going to school to ask for the requirements needed for us to enroll for the 2nd semester. And that is all! *bows* CLUE: "the name of that person can be found in one of my entries"

Hoho.. nothing much. This was just a short & crappy introduction xD But seriously it was almost like a crap agreement x.x

Yesterday, I took the whole day off. Away from responsibilities and anything that could cause me to stress out. The very reason is that Oct. 25 was indeed a special day for the whole family and we got all exausted in preparing stuffs, and these we don't use to do during the previous Oct 25s.

In the moring I watched Romeo x Juliet's last 4 to 5 episodes and I cried on the last 3rd chapter. The anime still had a big impact on me T.T In the afternoon, I decided to continue the theme I made for my next imeem theme/layout and gone to attend mass at 5:00pm.

Now this was the best part of the day! Evening at 10 I stopped and let my sister use the computer. I browsed papa's DVD set and found a movie cover that caught my eye. The movie was entitled, "SHALL WE DANCE" Starring: Jeniffer Lopez, Richard uh.. & uhh... (i forgot the other 2 big stars x.x) But anyway I knew it would be a good movie since J.LO was in it. I invited the whole family (except my sister since she was busy playing her favorite game) to watch along and they did!

We finished watching around 11:30pm and the movie was just spectacular! You might want to watch. Its a movie for the whole family and I slept smilling last night because of this movie! xD

Added 3 LOVES: [ welcome & give soome hugs to ♥:]
Jen, Rizza & Piwi

Soon to be Added: [ their blog's still under construction ]
Drey || Drey & Liemar

" Demo, FEEL FREE to BUG 'em all guys! xDD "

&&& Belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAN JAN (Oct.24) & to my twin Gil (Oct. 25)

Now let's bet busy! Trinity nee-san wait for meeee!

Bygone days :: anime movie links

2008-10-22T16:51:00.000+08:00

I got my Romeo x Juliet DVD back and watch the whole anime the 2nd time around. It's funny cause it still gives me goose bumps every time Romeo & Juliet are caught in a very sweet situation or say words that are very very much heartwarming! The anime is simply one of the best! Its like all in one! Sometimes I wish if only love these days could be as pure & passionate just like theirs. Well let's just wait and see ;)

Our Cheer and Dance exam went well I guess. I was really nervous and sort of forgot my favorite move -.-' I tried to control my nervousness and luckily was able to focus in the end.

Here are some souvenirs: images

Saturday practice @ the USI gym 8pm :: Sunday practice at the City Hall1 :: Sunday practice at the City Hall2 :: Before the Cheer dance exam :: Our outfit :: Diane & I :: After the competition

During the examination week, I can't control myself not to have my hands on the computer so I watched an anime OVA at youtube while studying and while waiting for the video to be fully loaded. The movie was Tokyo Marble Chocolate. A 2 episode movie that entails a story of two people and their love trials & difficulties. Though it was kind of short, I find the story very cute! I would love to recommend this movie to you guys.

If you like to watch it on Youtube here are the links: I saved all 6 as my favorite!

The story from the girl’s perspective:

Tokyo Marble Chocolate ep1 part 1/3
Tokyo Marble Chocolate ep1 part 2/3
Tokyo Marble Chocolate ep1 part 3/3
Ending Song: “Mata Aimashou” - i downloaded this one :]

The story from the boy’s perspective:

Still remember my post about a touching anime movie entitled, Byousoku 5 cm "5 Centimeters Per Second"? I also have the link HERE (also in youtube divided into 3) If your aiming of a movie which have an astonishing graphics and would change your perspective about a long distance relationship, well this is the movie just for you!

I'm very fund of anime love movies don't you think? ^^' Hope you guys will love these movies like I did.

It's finally our Sembreak and I plan to enjoy during this short vacation. Hope papa won't give me sooo much errands to do *o* I also have a very good news to tell! Our internet connection will soon be a DSL and will no longer be a slowpoke dial-up connection. Looks like I'll be erasing something from my wishlist when that time comes =)

But despite this good news, my parents have been advising me to quit some of my responsibilities in the internet and focus more on my studies. I've been thinking about it lately and I'm afraid that there might come a time where I'll have no choice but to prioritize my academics first. Nursing's a tough course & our university's pretty strict on students about reaching their standards so I think that situation won't be impossible.

I love graphics designing and my current responsibilities though it drags me sometimes, I still find some of the best fulfilling thoughts and emotions through them! And I know I'll be losing a very important part of me if ever I'll give up this side of career.

Just Got Home from our C&D Practice

2008-10-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

Hi guys! Long time no Blog post lol. XD
The good news is our official Finals Examination (Oct.15-18) days or week is now finally over! The bad news is we still yet have an exam for our P.E. hm~ and guess what kind of examination? Well its actually a Cheer & Dance competition. Unique huh? O.o This is the final(s) exam for all freshmen students!

We've been practicing before the examination week & after from 8am till 8pm. And at this very moment, I can still feel the pain of my head & legs - I'm all worn OUT! Plus its my 2nd day of my monthly visit x_x

Tomorrow will be the competition and as expected, we have to give everything we've got. To be honest its my 1st time joining a real cheering squad..SEROUSLY O_O I thought I'd be slacking off but I kinda had the hang of it *cheers*

I may be back formally by Wednesday. Tuesday will be the submission of our Nursing project & as usual I have to cram for it again -.-'

Okay will be seeing you guys in a while & wish me LUCK for tomorrow. Will be preparing for my beauty rest now :3

i :heart: graphics soo much! <3

2008-09-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I came across my old journal at gaiaonline (my first ever blog type activity in the internet). And while reading my nostalgic entries, I noticed some typos xD But the thing that surprised me the most, was how funny I was in my previous reverie.spot! Before, I idolize Reki when it comes to blogging. He usual makes people laugh through his ridiculous thoughts and writings. Well I tried imitating his writing style and happy to say it was successful. I can finally make Rizza laugh through my daily lousy journal entries and boy was it fulfilling! xD

I was unexpectedly cheery after reading my good old silly journal. Here's the LINKY if you want a glimpse of it. { WARNING: Beware of awkward typos & wrong grammars =x }

Gomen.. I have these following settings:

must have a gaia account
must be a friend to read the journal

I also bumped into some graphical sites and got some new inspirations.

[ oops! not mine. I forgot who the artist was o.o]

I'm thinking of making colorbars again. The last time a did this kind of style was way back 2004 O_O when i was still into character banner making for our just-for-fun stories. Plus downloaded some awesome icons!! x3

Today, I finished our game board draft through photoshop. The game is called, "Total Psyche OUT! (The quest for money & wits)"

Time span: 1 1/2 day. ( I started making it yesterday evening at around 10:20 pm stopped at 11pm. Continued the next day at 1pm and finally finished at 3:17) It was an uber RUSH work for your project in Psychology and to be submitted on Oct. 3 x.x My right hand was ssoooo sore after accomplishing the board! - I'm glad my teammates loved the outcome!

I'm supposed to be reading our project & report in R.E this very moment. *Mr. laziness attacks* But I think I can manage to read it later.lol xD (yeah.. i keep on procrastinating -.-')

A lot of projects & tests came up so I think this will be my last post until the end of our finals. As I was hoping, "TO DO MY BEST & PULL MY GRADES UP" for this last stage of the semester! :3

PS: Tomorrow there will be a Romantic Piano Concerto at the university's auditorium! (a kind event I've been waiting for!) I'll definitely won't want to miss the show. :3 - And it also took me 3 hrs. to make this post.

SCHOOL FRETFULNESS

2008-09-27T09:31:00.000+08:00

I just got home from school today. And feeling down, I decide on reading the blog of my favorite blog writer, Annie. This might be kinda weird but I feel relieve as if rejuvenated after reading her blog. Maybe because I could see/ relate my self in her situation while going through her well-defined blog entries.

Earlier, I just came to recognize College Life is a total new dimension. How come? Cause I seem can't grasp on what my real personality is! I switch from one persona to another and it irritates me a lot thinking how come I'm like this?! It gives me the impression that I can't deal with multiple people with one disposition on hand.

All I thought college life would be only associating well with peers, batch mates, teachers & etc. Making stronger bonds & doing well in studies But there is more like of an aura that tells me somethings different. Yes! I know college will be a total different world but I seem can't accept the thought. For me maybe it'll be just like changing schools and meeting new people. Its funny cause I've been in my school for almost 10 years now.

I realized the environment has totally change & I'm afraid I might too. I wish I could be a kid FOREVER. Running freely in the fields, free-spirited as ever! But I guess we can't do that. Everyone will soon change and eventually will go to their respective paths in life.

Honestly speaking, I HATE change. But somehow I would like to be a person who can be open to change (what an irony). Haha..I might be a nasty old lady who yaks about everything in the future. (God please don't let this happen! T_T)

I'm trying to refocus myself again. I tried doing it before, once or twice and its actually really effective.!! I try to block other unnecessary thoughts, feelings and emotions then to my surprise I could easily get things done, being able to manage my time well and not to mention out of the blue, being motivated in my studies! Shocking huh? But I was pretty stunned myself too.

I hope I could be always in that mood. May it be on school at home & everywhere else! Maybe in that way or another I could resolve my personality anxiousness issue :)

KUDOS to Focusing! xD
Added 2 love ones: Kuri & Nise
[*HUGS* for linking me back! THANK YOU! :3]

Yeys for the blogy COMEBACK!

2008-09-20T20:16:00.000+08:00

Hi there minna-san!!! xD
Wow... its been a while (really! -.-') and it certainly feels good to talk to you guys once again. Eto.. *looks below* OMGAH! O.O It's almost a month since I last had my official post!

Well a whole lot of heap had happen since last month. Starting from AGD's revamp, mid-term exams, game & team practices, intramurals (sports fest) & Peñafrancia Fiesta. I haven't been blogging for a while because just like everyone else, I'm also awfully busy. ^^;

But nonetheless I managed to finish a few sort of obligations in the world wide web. One of which was the revamp of our dear group, Anime Graphics Designing. Actually I was the one who asked for the group's revamp, that is why I was so persistent of finishing the project matter on time. And luckily it did! Thanks to my nee-san Trinity for the BIG big help!

I also managed to make a new theme at my Imeem:

[ A THEME TRIBUTE TO: Romeo x Juliet ]

As for my mid-terms, it was a huge pain in the neck! I fervently wish and pray that I passed the subjects. That is why in the finals I'll definitely do my best (SERIOUSLY) to pull my grades UP!

The U-games (university week) was totally so cool though I know some had find it boring. I participated in one rare group-game called, "Clinic of Dr. Wack" and our team got the 2nd place. We had a whole lot of fun and it was totally a game worth joining! The time span alloted for the game was about 2 hrs. since the game requires critical analogy & teamwork. That's why we started the game when the sun's still up & ended with a starry sky.
Plus! The modern dance competitors never failed to amaze me with their jaw-dropping moves!!

Here at Bicol, Naga, were still celebrating the feast day of Our Lady of Peñafrancia. A yearly celebration in the whole Bicol region of the Philippines during the month of September. And a regional celebration means... NO CLASSES! Well only for a few days.. more like for only 6 days.

Even so, six days of free moments is already a big deal (for me)! So as in a way to brighten up my desolated blog, I decided to have a new layout in comparison for my blogy comeback. *cheers*

Though it looks almost the same as my previous layout don't you think? O_o

The layout has no relation as to what I feel. Its just that, its the only layout that suits my taste & had my desired alignment. Plus I love its colors & style x3 I also changed the position of the Music Box because their is a little hitch in the alignment of the side bar that doesn't fit the playlist. Hope it looks fine up there.

By the way, I'm not the only one who changed their layout. Aiko a dear friend & sister of mine changed her layout style & URL too. Try dropping by her site & see how cute her new blog looks like ;)

o_o'

2008-09-07T14:14:00.000+08:00

... This sucks ='(
Just when I was about to publish this post, the window hagged and all I though the draft was saved, it wasn't!!!
ugh... And now I'll have to start from the VERY beginning. It was such a waste.. I typed so much in the post T^T

I N O R I .Romeo x Juliet.

2008-08-22T18:21:00.000+08:00

[ ROMEO X JULET Tribute Post] - WRITTEN: August 21 (As much as I want to expand the details, I'll try my best to keep it short. I am truly inspired to write today :3 )

Inori ~ You Raise Me Up [Full Version] (Anime- Romeo x Juliet) - LENA PARK

Ne... this day is no different from the days I used to finish reading or watching an anime. Yep! I just finished one! ^^ And its certainly worth watching. The anime is none other than

~ Romeo x Juliet ~
(anime series)

I really don't care about the anime reviews nor critics regarding the anime but for me, THE STORY HOLDS A GREAT VALUE T TELL. It's even now a part of my favorites! =)

The story doesn't follow the exact story line of Shakespeare's original novel but I think they made it that way for the best! I love the anime's story line + the impressive ending. It is way more better than the original.

Both Romeo and Juliet portrait an idealing personality. The story doesn't only apply to the anime itself but also to the real world. It depicts the reality between the rich & the poor, the powerful & the voiceless. The importance of comradeship, trust and unity. The sense of commitment, the value of Life and most of all LOVE.

Honestly, I cried before the ending and as usual, flooding tears came our from my eyes. Haha anyway. The anime was worth crying for. It was simply a spectacular ENDING and.. story ^^;

The anime taught me valuable reasons to ponder and I think that's the best part of it! ^.^v

(image credits to MT)

Anime DVDs Galore~

2008-08-19T18:37:00.000+08:00

Puni Puni~ Have my latest post @ my LiveJournal today! :3

I'm currently watching the anime series of Romeo x Juliet. The opening song is so breath taking! (japanese version of "You Raised Me Up" + the awesome animation )

*** Achievement Night!

2008-08-17T17:54:00.001+08:00

[CURRENTLY: *sqee* HAPPY!~ WOW*WOOT!!]

Aug. 16, 2008 was a very memorable day for all Terra (means "earth" - lvl. 1, all 1st yr. nursing students) interpretative dance representatives.
Terra was an outcast team since were all composed of college newbies... Demure college newbies ^^;

Well, I know all first years are like those x3 We'll eventually grow. =D

In the morning, all I thought our kickbaseball (women) competition was over but when we saw the schedule of events, Terra had still yet have an opponent to beat. By then it was the championship, Terra vs. Aqua. And the Aqua is TWICE to beat x_X

The manager was wasn't around so I took the initiative to inform every player & if ever we were short, I tried to look for fellow grade level that was in their rubber shoes ^^; (what a pain!)

Okay so to make the long story short, we had very shocking challengers. Guess what?!? Almost all the players of team Aqua were the university's Varsity players! Players from the sports; basketball, volleyball and uhm... I don't recognize some ^^;
But it was like OMFudgyGah!!!! O_O; How were we suppose to beat these people??? T^T

We had 2 sets of game, without any rest. Haha. Alot of us got scared (of course -.-') but along the game, the feeling of tension dropped. The game was totally FUN! It was really amazing playing with the varsities. They were all friendly and convinced us that it was all a game. Nothing to be upset about. And at the end, the Aqua Team had their title as the champion & Terra as the 1st runner-up =)

After the game, I immediately proceeded to our dance practice...wooh! What a hectic day!

Ok. So what happen at the night of Aug. 16 was an overall talent competition for all nursing college students at school. Their were competitions like:

*Dance competitions:

Modern dance
Interpretative dance
Dance sports

*Singing contests

Solo & Duet

*Wind & String
*Comedy Skit

and many more! xD That's why the event started at 2:00 pm & ended at 9:20 pm
Each had a representative by the teams namely:

Pyre - lvl. 4 (element of fire)
Aqua - lvl. 4 (element of water)
Aero - lvl. 2 (element of air)
Terra - lvl. 1 (element of earth)

Well.. not all really had a representative >.>

Before our performance, their were already contents held and as expected Terra had the least points ^^; People didn't expect that much of our presentation since the mentality that Terra is a "weak" team was there.

So the pressure of winning in our category built-up. We started with a prayer and ask for guidance fervently, breaths in and out and whooosh! Off we go to the stage.

The song we interpreted through a dance was the Theme Song of the movie, "Spirits" entitled, "We belong" By: uh..I forgot the artist.

We tried performed at our best! With full emotion, grace and poise. Haha.. I was even quite shivering xD

Then suddenly we heard the cheers from our fellow batch mates! Shouting out load, clapping their hands as if the performance was over. We didn't show any emotion cause it'll be a minus point instead, we focused at the essence of the song and tried to project everything perfectly.

YES! We did gave our best shot and at our Finale Pose, at our surprise everyone gave us a BIG round of applause!! And some even gave a STANDING OVATION! Even the faculty and other teams gave their appreciation. Their reaction was totally way beyond our expectation!

At that time still, we didn't gave any reaction until the lights were dim. But seeing their reaction, was like WOW! XDDDD Why did they gave such feedback?! Maybe because they saw how eager we were despite the teases of the other teams...

At the back stage, we screamed of total happiness! hahaha.. as if we were the winner but that was not it, seeing that they loved the presentation, already gave us the very reason to be happy & shout for JOY. Were VERY pleased knowing all our efforts & sacrifices for this event really PAID OFF =D

AW!... it was really ONE HECK of a night! =3

Some spare pictures after the event: ( i went home looking like this just to get some souveniers x3)

I'm sorry if it's a little blurry. Its already 9pm and I was really hungry T^T.. rush.rush.rush. ^^; woo... and the computer room is pretty messy too x_x
Might as well grab some group pictures from FS & upload our dance video *-*~

Rush.Rush. will be back in a jiffy :3

2008-08-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

[ Making this post in a rush ]

uhg.. my legs feels so SORE T_T
wooh! Its been almost a week and a half since i last had my post. I've been very busy in school this past two weeks (even on Saturdays & Sundays). Encoding for projects & research if not, doing my job at imeem ^^;

Starting from Aug. 13 up to 16 will be our Nursing week. Its a sort of intramurals activity within the course or department. (wait i got no time to explain x_x) Anyway, I wasn't planning to join any activities simply because I thought all the game slots are taken.

Then one day, Drey (my best friend) suddenly asked me to join the Interpretative Dance!! I was like, "WTFudge" o.o I'm no good at dancing and she knows that! - And now she's taking me to a sort of aristocratic dance style?! (omgah! -.-') I had no choice but to agree with her since it'll be my only opportunity to spend a week with my bestfriend again.

Uhu! Though were in the same school and taking up the same course, we seldom see and have time for bonding because of our class schedule difference.

Then here comes the kickbaseball for women. Since I'm taking my college degree at my old school, a few folks know that i play soccer. And guess what? I got hooked up again x_x'

Nonetheless, were doing good with our kickbaseball games. (all wins! *cheers*) & I'm still into interpretative dance. I got a few bumps below my kness practicing over & over again. From morning till late afternoon.

The all grade level competition for college (nursing) will be held tomorrow (including the interpretative dance). Wish me the best of LUCK cause I need it so badly T.T And may God grant us the the grace and poise were all asking for during the performance. T^T

I promise to reply back to my buddies' comments really SOON! I PROMISE!
Just please give me the time T_T. I'm very grateful that you guys commented me back! :3